hate this day.

reallllyyyyy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

you try so hard, just to find out, it's for nothing! ugh!

bucket list:

Saw the movie, after I wanted to watch it like 1234 years ago. That hit me hard, I balled and cry like there's no other duuu. hahaha. Def one of my bumping up movies to the all time favorites. A lot of moral stories and things you can learn from.

my bucket list:

I'm riding the boat and going with the stream. ces't la vie.

I'm still alive: don't worry.

JUST HAVING FINALS. and really concentrating. lakdjlakdsjflakdjfal;kdfja;lkdjf

My study song.

I listen to it while I study. It's so quirky. cool and has nice beat. I can actually study with it. listen to it. MARIO KART RULES!

Be positive!

funny things happens to funny people. LAUGH LAUGH LAUGH LAUGH. It's contagious. I love funny people, specially sarcastic funny. it's my thing. underground funniness. funny funny funny.

purple.yellow.brown.teal

did I mention I love those colors? Good combooooo, no matter how you mix them up together. I'm Obsess.

eating crackers and cheese for my brains. yum yum yum.

santa's coming to town.

yey!!! santa come, and bring me some mistletoe.

random:

when I was a kid, I use to think that there is a floating city, coz everytime they say they're leaving, they have to fly and use the plane to go somewhere. So I thought, America was a city above the clouds. hahahahaha. too much cartoons yo! nyahahaha.

shubidopbidopbidoooboppp.

seriously....... drained. need some caffeine. lots lots of them.

sour and patches.

those candies are good, I'm refraining from eating them, but they're calling my name. OKAY FINE, i'll eat them... norm norm norm norm.......... now i feel guilty.

me as of 12:59 am 11/25/08

I haven't done my laundry for a while now, because........ aaaaaahhhhhh... I neglected it, and now I'm clothe-less, living with my really thin shirt and not so warm clothes.

My fu*king neighbor plays the music like a mothaaaf-ing broad day light on a weekend. Jesus, people have school and it's freaking 1 am in the mothering morningggg.

I have so many papers due next week, and THANK GOD, I don't even know how many. There's just too much I did not procrastinate this time. THANKKKK GOD. Take it one step at a time. abbrr...

Spam and Eggs are getting really tiring, but everytime I eat it, it's still so good. Let's see for the past week I have cooked:
-chopsuey (which by the way excellentee! and healthy)
-Beef steak
-fried rice
-tacos (which was the bombbb, no really I made it. From scratch)
-ramen
-last but not the least, spam and eggs.

next week I'm thinking to cook
-fish (monday)
-left over veggies, maybe chicken soup with all kinds of veggies. (healthy-ness right there) SOPAS SOUNDS GOOD!
-pork chop
-hamburger and salad. yum yum. not so healthy
-nilagang baka ng universe.
-maybe spam and eggs.

I eat out once a week, so change of variety and stuff. I try to plan my weekly food, so it forces me to cook and SAVE mula. ohyeah. mula.

With all the papers and test quizess I have, I don't think I'm going to have a thanksgiving to celebrate the pilgrims killing the indians. whackk!

And I'll be standing in line just to be part of the fad group outside best buy with my lap top doing my research project, my lab report, my take home 5 page essay midterm, my Unknown bacteria paper, and studying for a quiz, on monday. OH AND A POWERPOINT PRESENTATION DUE ON TUESDAY. beat that nerd-O! and on top of that, I need to breath, eat and sleep. and socialize and text and talk on the phone. myspace, FBs, blog and all the shibbangs. ain't I a good student?! yes, yes, I am...

it's 1:16 and I can see my laundry crawling out of the basket. Scary. Maybe, I should turn off the lights now, so I wont see it. That's the only part I procratinated, laundry. the essential part.


GOOD NIGHT. Don't forget to pray. bye.

breakfast before everything else.

EAT. I just realize how really breakfast reallly is important with our everyday work. I CAN'T WORK, FUNCTION AND THINK NICELY when I don't eat breakfast. Oh and you don't want ulcers in ur tummy do you? so eat eat eat breakfast, even if just alittle bite. something. okaiee? I had ulcers last year, but it was beginning stage. and It really sucks, but im okay now. So that's why, I'm telliing you. EAT BREAKFAST, AND DON'T FORGET TO EAT ON TIMMMMMMMEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE. I can't emphasize that enough. eat on time.

IT'S BEGINNING TO LOOK A LOT LIKE CHRISTMAS.

I heard xmas music last night at 96.5 and I jumped of happiness. yiheee. xmassssssssssss!!! fun fun fun. first fun xmas for me, FINALLYYYYYYYYYY!!!
christmasssss. yey.


and I watched twilight TWICE. coz i can't get enough of it. love love loves itt.

XAMANTHA TINIO CORTES: WELCOME!!

NEWest member of honey/baby/niko gang: xamantha.
isn't she adorable? she loves daryll's socks and underwear. she likes smelly stuff. hahaha. I'll love this baby girl and spoil her like no other. other dogs will die of jealousy. I love both of them. They are my babies now. love love love you both. mwah mwah. you make my heart melt every time. mwahh mwahhh!

party time: asdf!!!

Helllllaa parties. and I'm hella tired!

i love him

Today I woke up. And I realize how wonderful daryll is. awwww... I just love him a lot. I just do. I can't explain this feeling. Even though we have ROUGH times with both sides, we keep still holding on, and keep dreaming, and hoping and loving each other UNCONDITIONALLY! specially him. Even though I put him on this NEVER ENDING FERRIS WHEEL OF TEST in my life, he keep facing it with all his heart. Last week, we were fighting; HELLA FIGHTING, then I said, Why don't you just break up with me?! Then he said: WHY WOULD I WANT TO DO THAT? WHY WOULD I WANT TO BREAK UP WITH YOU? WHY WOULD I EVER WANT TO DO THAT? then........... it melted my heart.... but I was still fired up. then, after he said that... I realize in my heart, that... no matter what, we will face everything together. brokeassness, trials, quarells, poverty, richness, sickness, bitchassness, misunderstandingness, schoolness, homeworks, and works, FAMILY issues, and all the issues in this world, we will face it no matter what.

we complement each other really really really well. He's my grammar checker, and I'm his story teller (literally). and together we make an amazing book of our lives. babe, if you're reading this, (which I know after years, coz you don't want reading online stuff of mine) I want you to know that I LOVE YOU. AND YOU'RE THE INK IN MY LIFE. YOU KEEP ME GOING. i love youuuu.

Obammaaaaa!

When I found out he won, I BALLED AND CRIED! why? because finally, someone new and great to see for my generation. Generations will come and say, 2008 WAS THE BEST YEAR OF THE ENTIRE FCKING HISTORY OF LIFE.

BUTTTTTT then again, stupid people!!!! PROP 8? HELLO?! PEOPLE OF AMERICA, DO YOU NOT UNDERSTAND THE WORD LOVE? OHMYGOD! you know, if JESUS is alive, he will even vote NO ON PROP 8! why? because seriously the apostles are some stupid moron to interpret that it's only for men and women. I AM STRAIGHT, AND I LOVE MY BOYFRIEND, can you possibly think of any worst IDEA, when suddenly people or some stupid morons told me that I CAN'T LOVE MY BOYFRIEND because "religion" told you not too? FUKC YOUUUU, THANK YOU!
(well, in any case, people have told me that though, but still I fucking did something to just fuck em off. HARDSHIPS being in a relationship...iknow...) anyways, why be discriminatory about same sex marriage? THEY HAVE THE SAME "LOVE" AS WE FCKING MEN AND WOMEN FEEL? what is the difference? Just coz they have penis to penis, and vagina to vagina? and they can't insert it? wellllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll.... for your info, they still do CUM AND HAVE ORGASMS... and I heard, they have the best orgasms, and they DON'T FAKE IT! like 80% of women does just to satify their fucking man's EGO!

you know, some of the gays and lesbians couples I have met, they have the true-st essence of love, purest love. It's not about sexual interactions, Its about being with one another supporting and caring. If you are wondering what if they addopt a kid how will it grow? WELL IT WILL GROW THE SAME AS ORDINARY COUPLE WOULD. MAYBE EVEN BETTER! why? BECAUSE not like other people, they can teach their kids not to be IGNORANT ABOUT LOVE AND NOT TO BE DISCRIMINATORY. they would teach their children that LOVE IS NOT FUCKING GAME and that it should not be taken for granted. AND SO ON AND SO FORTH...


people voted for fucking chicken's right?! and it passed?! commooonnnnnn now. and you can't even pass fucking prop 8? human's right? I CAN'T BELIEVE THIS SHIT IS HAPPENING?!

people of the world, what if I take away your right to marry you love ones? WHAT WILL YOU DO?!

hellssaaa bored

I HAVE 3 MIDTERMS this tuesday. CRAZZINESS. ohgoshness. i'm going to die. i have not studied for the other two. Microbiology is consuming my life. but regardless, i want to get a hella good grade on that class that's why i'm sweating blood studying for it!!! alkdjlaksdjflakjdflaskjdflaskdjf


but anyways. november is the crazy month. argh. hella crazy. too much party going on duuddeeeee.

suicide.

ahhhh. I've been reading hella stories online, about people committing suicide now a days... because of the economy. IT'S BUSH'S FAULT, NOT YOURS. don't kill yourself. You're going to limbo, or hell if you do. And you don't want that right? it sucks more than living. Anyways. everyone chill. don't kill yourself.

This one story, she killed herself, so that the kids and her husband would get her life insurance and pay the house. SERIOUSLY? why?! I know you care, and I know you love your family to death, but that's just giving up on them. You are not helping them, you're just putting them on a path were it's more traumatic than loosing a house, or more traumatic than getting broke. EVERYONE GETS BROKE. seriously, once in a while, you have to be at the bottom. GESSHUS. you are not alone, don't you think everyone is in the same predicament as you are? So please, if anyone is reading this, tell everyone tooo just hope for the better.

each day gets better. don't let your hopes up. things will come around, sooner or later. They are just trials in life, and you are not alone. The whole nation is suffering.

What about the third world country, they have it worst than us. they don't eat, they don't sleep, no house, no family, no nothing. NOTHING. NOTHING. and of top of that, they are being genocide and on top of that, they're government are not supporting them in annny wayyy or foommmmm. not single penny nor anything. ATLEAST PEOPLE HERE IN AMERICA, government is doing SOMETHING, i know our gov is retarded right now, but THEY ARE DOING SOMETHING to ease people's life. believe in it, don't loose your hope. "WE THE PEOPLE" not "YOU THE PEOPLE".

wedding!

We're going tooeee aaa weeeddding. i love weddings. yey! but i don't have camera. ;( so i just have to rely on my sister for the pictures. :). I'm gonna get prepped up today, that's why I'm excited. i like dressing up. yiihii. nice nice. that's why I like going on a date. I get dressed up and getting dressed up, and thinking what to wear, thinking everything is fun. So maybe when it's MY turn to get married, I'll take as long as I want to prepare. FYI, I'm good at planning if you have not notice. woohooo. so My wedding would be a pretty damn happy chill party. woohoo. BUT THAT'S LIKE 4-6 YEARS FROM NOw. but hey,,,,, time flies fast. bowchikawowowww!

this makes wanna cuddle.

and have my self a very merry christmas, FINALLY. christmas, I'm so ready for you this year. a well deserving happy christmas for me, finally, for the past 20 years, It was not so happy. but now, 21st christmas for my life, will be merry. Merry with my very special someone and it will definitely like that for the rest of my life till then, and till on. can't wait!

If all guys were girls for a day.

didn't really like her that much. but this one really touched me. AAWWww... okay, kudos for you B. good video too. extra kudos.

I love the bridge. It really is true.. too little too late.


Well thank God, manfriend<3 is not like others. THANK GOD. I love you manfriend<3. ur my cherry on my vodka. lovee you.

thru sickness and in health.

today I got some fever and chills. My body was hot and aching. Manfriend<3 came through and took care of me really well, even though most of the time I was bitchy because I don't feel well. He stuck with it till I fell asleep. When I woke up, I just saw him looking at me the whole time. AWWWW. sweettness. he said he was worried about me. :) times like that gives me butterflies. I'm not hard to impress, little things impresses me. but what hard about me is, those little things are the simplest thing in the world that you won't think I'll like them. I'm simple but complicated. abbrr. Then I fell asleep again, then when I woke up, he's sleeping beside me holding my hands.
Doesn't it sound like a movie script? damnn... huh? so i kissed him and fell asleep again. Thats how sick I was. But it ain't matter, coz I got the best boyfriend, I'm sorry, Manfriend<3 in the worrld.

I WILL DANCE

Where the Hell is Matt? (2008) from Matthew Harding on Vimeo.


I will do what he did before I die. I swear. and it will be playing on my funeral. and I will dance just like him.

it's some kindaaaa funn.

we went clubbing last night at temple sf, and it was fun!!! first off: if you're planning to get drunk like the other beezy last night, don't dance on the dance floor and puke all over. coz seriously, IT'S NOT COOL! oh geesh, i almost puke, just smelling her puke. sheeitt. well anyways, here are some phichuttrees.

henjhoy.
more on my myspace. k. bahhyyyy

Scantrons:

Can suck my Dick!!! I was suppose to have 92/100 with my TEST, but my scantron says it's 80! so tell me why and what happened! I tried to argue with the teacher saying, I accidentally skipped one question, so it moved my answers and everything! And on my paper question, I cirled the right answers. IT IS LOGICAL! scantrons are fucking small, they have small boxes to scribble on, and for 100 questions in 55 minutes? YOU DON'T HAVE TIME TO FUCKIN CHECK EVERY LITTLE MOTHAFCKIN BOX! But my prof was a smart ass, and he knew someway somehow, people will MAKE this kind of mistakes, so he wrote on the paper question: ONLY THE ONE ON THE SCANTRON WILL BE GRADED! So now, I feel stupid after getting an "A" on my paper, it turned into "B". Well, atleast I now know, scantron sucks. AND IT ALWAYS HAPPENS TO ME. FROM MISSION COLLEGE, TO EVC, TO OHLONE, AND NOW SJSU, MY CURSE FROM SCANTRONS FOLLOW ME EVERYWHERE. It's not a coincidence anymore. SERIOUSLY, I CALL IT, "the curse of the scantron". ---But later tonight, my prof said, he'll check it. so chyeahhh. *HOPE HE CONSIDERS.* I'm just mad and wanted to share it to the world. BECAUSE SOMETIMES, I DON'T HAVE NOBODY TO TALK. That's why I blog. and bullets. whateverrrrrr.

octoBER.

sooo its octoberrrrr. anddd, got my new pad. yey! well anyways, i'm hungry and I want to eat a huge tasty sushiii. nice.

wasssupppppppppp?!!!!!!! I was watching filipino channel the other day, and i saw that they were counting down for christmas already. they said, 89 days before xmas. and that was last week. soooo i guess xmas is coming downnnn hard this year. MY BEST YEAR EVER SO FAR!

journey's don't stop believin''

watched it, and it was greatttt. hand's down.

tired.

of everything. I just want to catch my breath and release all this tension ans sighs I have, and learn how to accept it and have fun doing what I'm doing. Don't get me wrong, I love myself right now, and what's happening, but I'm overwhelm. I'm overwhelm by how I'm so into what I'm doing. and I'm not use to it. There's part of my heart that keeps bothering me. It's annoying and so unnecessary. I just want to slumb and just sit where I could think for things that coulda happened, and things that I want to happen. I want to make stories in my head. I want to do something, but I can't express it, for some reason. sighh...

There is this one song that I kept repeating over and over. David archuleta "crush" I just love it. so much that I keep singing it over and over in my head even when I'm taking my test. just too good.

Ms.independent

So last week, I bumped into a friend of mine. We kinda caught up on what's new in our life... then we kinda went to a topic about "filipina" girls. He said, "ALL FILIPINA GIRLS ARE DEPENDENT ON THEIR SIGNIFICANT OTHERS". oh my...... I got irate by it. just cause all the girls that you've been with are dependent on you, not all will and ARE. example? living example? ME! I think, if there's one thing I'm proud of with myself, that would be I AM NOT A CLINGY GIRLFRIEND. and that I AM NOT THE JEALOUS kind! why?!!! because I know I can trust the guys I am with! i don't call anyone 24/7th, I even push them to go out. I do my own thing, I make things for me, I make my own decisions. I don't ask little things that there's no irrelevance to what we are. I AM THE BOSS OF ME! coz I know I can trust my man. ask all my exes, I barely had issues with trust when it comes to them! if there was an issue, it's them with me. Oh men. sorry but not all filipina girls are dependent on their significant others! that's one thing I hate is being dependent on my guy. I'm the independent kind. FYI, if you haven't notice, I have my own thing separate from whatsoever I have with my manfriend. I have my own set of friends, I have my own thing going on. we're together but separate. If there's one thing a person needs to know about me, this would be it: I don't like too much dependency, I walk like a boss, talk like a boss, do it like the boss, because I AM THE BOSS OF ME. i got my own thing. Like me or leave me. I won't push myself to you. And I'll tell you to get lost. blunt as a motherfcker.



"I want you but I don't need you. everything I have, best believe I bought it.

good deeds&blessings in disguise fluffy things.

me and manny (I'll call him manny. manfriend=manny) were fighting. So we talked in the car, and drove at the park so we would have a deep conversation thing. In the middle of the argument, we were already heating things up and getting all hurt with words and we were at the edge of killing and me abusing him. I was seriously going to break it off with him. When all of a sudden, two little stray dogs coming to us. They were stray because no one was at the park, just us and the dogs. So we took the dogs, and looked at their tags and tried calling the phone number on their collars. It took long hours to get a hold of the people. So while we were calling them, we looked at each other holding each dog, looked into each others eyes. With no words.............. we kissed.
THEN... after that, the dogs' owner picked up the phone and they said their worried sick about their little tick tack and musky. So we asked for thier adress and return their precious little cute dogs to their rightful owner.
It's funny how I said rightful owners. My heart's been thru alot. got kicked and pushed, got denied and everything. But when he took me, My heart never felt safe til I met him. I know I can trust him with my eyes close. And he won't hurt me like others did. He'll protect me and will always bring it back to the rightful owner--me.
Even though we constantly fight and get into arguments, we will be there for each other. He DESERVES my heart.

insensitive.

I have been told that I'm too insensitive. Specially towards other people's feelings towards me. Here's one brief and deep explanation why I am the way I am.

Before, I was not. I was too sensitive and "reciprocated" to what you were sending and giving me. But when I give too much, "they" started taking what I have given for granted. I was hurt. so bad, that I even thought of turning my back on everything. It hurts so badddddddddddddddd that I taught myself to toughen up. In the process of "toughening", my outer skin became so thick... that even a tiny bit of osmosis won't even come through. And now, I don't even know how to feel you. If there was love that left, I buried it under the deepest corner and prayed that it won't escape through and knock my wall down.

Insensitive. Now life's better. Hope it will be better for you and me.
Caring scarred me for life. I will care, but will not care if you don't.

songs to my manfriend TODAY!

coz i just can't seem to picture my day without him even though we almost killed each other today!!! fuck you babe, i can't live with out you! bitch, whatchu do to me? bitch bitch!! i love you!

coz he's my sugar daddie. yowp!

whatever you liii

niko: honiko this song is for u
niko: =)
niko: go to youtube
niko: watever u like
niko: from TI
mai: yeah rightt!
mai: hahaha
mai: that's funny baby
mai: really now..




ya got some hot wings?!

asdf

It's amazing how I find time to eat. sleep. talk. be gf. a student. a sister. cook. dance. do this survey. and all those thing i do in between, inspite of my oh so buys schedule. AND I LOVE IT. nothing gets better than being so accomplish and doing things that you love at the same time.

chao.

10 to 1 of My World


TEN HOW'S:

How did you get one of your scars?
oh you know, it's typical. everyday.

How did you celebrate your last birthday?
my friends and i ate, then my family went to vegas.

How are you feeling at this moment?
I'M GOOD.

How did your night go last night?
one of the amazing nights I have had so far this year. Manfriend treated me good.

How did you do in high school?
good.

How did you get the shirt you're wearing?
sister.


How often do you see ur best friend?
when I'm hungry.

How much money did you spend last month?
tons.

How old do you want to be when you get married?
26ish

How old will you be at your next birthday?
22

NINE WHAT'S:

Your mothers name?
maria bonita "bonnie" guevara tinio.

What did you do last weekend?
cuddle

What is the most important part of your life?
what: living life with no regrets
who: people that are responsible of me being me right now.


What would you rather be doing?
doing nothing and eating dark chocolates, and cuddling while getting a foot massage!

What did you last cry over?
I missed my appointment and i cried. coz, i was so pissed.

What always makes you feel better when you’re upset?
sleeping.

What’s the most important thing you look for in a significant other?
TRUST.HONESTY.OPEN MINDEDNESS.

What are you worried about?
my school. well not worried, more like, excited/anxiousness.

What did you have for breakfast?
ribs.

EIGHT HAVE YOU’S:

Have you ever liked someone who had a girlfriend/boyfriend?
crush. not liiiikeee as inn LIKEEE i will still him like. NO.

Have you ever had your heartbroken?
once. but it was stupid, now i regret.

Have you ever been out of the country?
yes. 4-6 times i can't remember.

Have you ever done something outrageously dumb?
oh yeah. A. L. O. T.

Have you ever been back stabbed by a friend?
yes, been there done that so over it. your lost.

Have you ever had sex on the beach?
yes, WAIT, THE DRINK I MEAN. it's a cocktail. hello. anyone 21yrold should know that.

Have you ever dated someone younger than you?
nope, don't swing that wayyy.

Have you ever read an entire book in one day?
yessss. oh yess.

SEVEN WHO’S:

Who was the last person you saw?
uncle ef.

Who was the last person you texted?
my buuudddddddd, christine, my undercover buudddddd.

Who was the last person you hungout with?
christine with bryan.

Who was the last person to call you?
mannfriend<3

Who did you last hug?
manfriend<3 with a squeeze on the butt.

Who is the last person who texted you?
colleen.

Who was the las person you said "i love you" to?
manfriend<3 with a big fat kiss on the lips.

SIX WHERE’S:

Where does your best friend live?
bayyareaa.

Where did you last go?
sf, for a really nice elegant unique kwirky wedding. Dr. nate's.

Where did you last hang out?
my hood.

Where do you go to school?
SJSU. yeyiie.

Where is your favorite place to be?
BSA lounging area. food food food. so cheap!

Where did you sleep last night?
my bed.

FIVE DO’S/DOES:

Do you like someone right now?
always.

Do you think anyone likes you?
always. psshh. hah!

Do you ever wish you were someone else?
noooo...
celebrity sometimes.

Do you know the muffin man?
hahahaha. he's my next door neigbhor.

Does the future scare you?
yes....

FOUR WHY’S:

Why are you best friends with your best friend(s)?
Because they are real and there for me when I need them, and not need them. same feathers flocks togethers. waters and rices.

Why did you get a myspace?
peer pressurre.

Why did your parents give you the name you have?
marie - my mom.
donna - her bestfriend
lisa - coz she likes it.

Why are you doing this survey?
because Im taking a break from school things.

THREE IF’S:

If you could have one super power what would it be??
Ill be flash woman.

If you could go back in time and change one thing, would you?
sometimesss. idk. still contemplating about that.

If u were stranded on a deserted island & could bring 1 thing what would you bring?
the whole entire mall.

TWO WOULD-YOU-EVER’S:

Would you ever get back together with any of your ex’s if they asked you?
nopee. sorry buddy. too late.

Would you ever shave your head to save someone you love?
YES. i'm thinking about that actually. no foreals.

ONE LAST QUESTION

Are you happy with your life right now?

yes sir. happiest ever.

something only happens to me.

So before I sleep, its only 840pm, but I haven't had sleep because I couldn't sleep. I think I have insomia. tskk. well anyways, so today, at sjsu, I was sitting at those benches near the fountain, some random beezy sat next to me with her little baby and somewhat 3 year old boy. Damn, that boy was crazy. He went right in into the water, so the mom had to go for her. For some random thing, she handed me her baby so she could ran for her boy. Damn, I was like... uuuhhhh.......... excuse me... what am I going to do with this little "thing". So I was holding the baby, the baby by the way is less than a year. around 4 months. That lady sure can trust some poor college girl like me. If I did not have a heart, and that I'm seriously fucked up person, I would ran away with the kid and sell it, like that one case "madeliene" kid. But I'm a good person, so i was akwardly holding the baby and staring at it. after 2 minutes or so, the mom and boy came back. the boy was all wet and the baby started crying...FOR CRYING OUT LOUD.... I think the baby was hungry... soooo what did the mother do??? SHE PULLED HER SHIRT DOWN AND FLUNG AROUND HER BOOBS AND TITS AROUND SO SHE COULD FEED THE BABY. no joke!!! it was in public, and she just pulled her shirt and her breast showed! and check this out, while her shirt was down, her boobs were showing and she got something in the stroller while her boobs were flunging and slunging around! it was showing for good ten seconds. that's a lot of one mississippis. you could do 5 intersessions with that seconndddssss... people were walking by her too. and it was a busy crowd. I was seriously shocked and I couldn't believe my eyes, I was less than 5 feet from her, and people were shocked too. I SWEAR!! It was the funniest, scariest thing ever for me. imagine some boobies with big tits around you? dannggg... some experiences in my life..... huh?


THINGS LIKE THIS HAPPENS TO ME DAILY. how interesting my life is huh? stay tuned, maybe next time I'll talk about some penises flunging around. lol.

hii y'all!

CRAMPS ARE INSANELY BAD! i would trade to be a guy just for this! and the heat doesnt help either.

on the good note, i found my outfit for the wedding. wohoo. forever 21 loverocks. they make gold for my two cents. meowwh.

school!

So eversince school started, which is what? three days ago, I already had tons and pages of reading to do, some 5 pages prelab and write up, mind you I have two labs. So each lab is 5, depending how long is the expi. short expi=5pages of pre lab. so later on, I'll develop carpal tunnel writing pre labs. My schedule is hectic, but there are breaks in between thank God. I kinda like it this way, kinda hectic, because I am forced to do things as they are given. not like the other semesters where I procrastinate. Even though a lot of people are telling me that my load is hard, and the classes are hard, I find it the other way. As I said, I don't study much. I passed HS and transferred college without studying much. Those subjects that I did before are hard, hard for the most part and most people. I took physics 2B, calculus, Bio lec and lab, history, asian studies something and some other extra curricular activities on the side and still past it with good grades without studying. I guessed. lol. jk. This semester, I'm taking loads, no joke loads, with the most unfortunate teachers. I got the hardest teachers, no I did not wanted it but it was the only time I could fit in my schedule. SO CALL ME CRAZY, BUT I THINK THIS SEMESTER WITH MY LOAD IS FUN, CHALLENGING, HARD AND EASY. I don't know how I do it, but I'm doing it, and I will do it. I will get good grades and slap it on your face! lol. or anyone's face that says they can't take school load shit. take a look at mine and I'll bet you you'll die taking mine. I'm pretty sure there are a lot of people that are harder than mine, but I guess I'm up there with them. YUP. so the moral of this story is:

I'M REALLY SERIOUS ABOUT THIS SESMESTER AND YOU'LL BARELY SEE ME BECAUSE I'M BURRIED IN MY BOOKS AND STUDIES. NEXT TIME YOU'LL PASS BY ME, I'LL BE CARRYING ROLLER BAG--AND I WONT CARE! I'D RATHER SACRIFICE MY FASIONISTA ATTITUDE THAN CARRYING ALL THIS BOOKS AND LABS AND NOTES ON MY BACK! k bye.

something too funny for me.

When we were at six flags more fun, the first ride we did was medusa. on the line of medusa, there was a tv hanging and promoting you know anything. so this asian dude, the more flags dude, came on. he did his usual thing and saying.... but.... in the middle of it, it got stuck. like a broken recored where it'll just repeat that part where it stopped. so it went like this...

one flag,
not so fun.
six flags,
more FL....FLA..... FAGS... FAGS... FAGS.... FAGS... FAGS.... FAGS.... FAGS... FAGS....

MORE FUN!

hahahahahhaahah. buahahahahahwhahaha... rahahahahrrarararara!


me and manfriend just looked at each other and laugh like there's no tomorrow. and I think the people there kinda did not get why were laughing and got pissed. BUT I DDNT CARE! I HAD MY FACE PAINT, AND I LOOKED AWESOME. I COULDN'T CARE LESS! I just had my stomach ab work out.


oh and yah. school started today. long ass day. need to sleep. tomorrow long ass day.

fiiihhhiiiinnnnnn hinn hinnn hinnn..

Six flags, more flags, more funnnn!

Six flags was the best! It was a long overdue thing... but it was so fun. Like they said, there's always that kid inside you. AND I WAS A TOTAL SKIPPY JIPPY KID IN THERE! When we were watching the dolphins, OMG, I was more excited than most of the kids there. I ran for the front seat and i screamed the loudest to cheer! hahaha.

Me and daryll got face paint. I wanted to do that forever! I want to look like the cirque du soliel people. I wanted a butterfly, but I got better than a butterfly. It was the first thing that we did when we got there. straight to the face paint. wohoo. manfriend got the panda cute lil berr. hahaha.

So... so... soo.............. before we got to vallejo, I was bitchin like no other. I was so mad because manfriend forgot to feed me. and I did not wanna tell him that I'm hungry because of my sinful pride. hahahaha. bwhahaa. rararara. (why do I laugh like that?) so it was already noon when we got there, and I started bitchin! poor manfriend. :( I wanted him to feed me without asking, because I'm an eating machine! I eat 17 times a day!!! so what's the point of asking, just feed me. So by the time we were going to exit the last exit before flags, manfriend took me to mcdees, and feed me. the moment I got me food, I was a sweet baby again. no seriously, you'll fall head over heels if you see me like that. lol. hahaha. bwahahaha, rrararara (seriioussllyy?)

So when we got to six flagsss more funn, I went crazy like a kid. I acted like a kid. My voice like a kid, and my inner kid was out. I was not a 21 year old, I was a 5 year old! I even bough a lunch box, a justice league lunch box! rararararara!!! so we rode all the rides there, and manfriend was a pussy. Before we got to six flaggsss more funnn, manfriend and I had a bet who's more pussier. Me or him. yep! HIMMMMM.... it's definitely a sight to see and hear when we were at the roller coaster!!!!


re-inact:
Manfriend before the ride:
"Let's see who's the pussy now. lets see who screams the loudest.. pshhh....."
ME NO REACTION..." LALALALALA. "
manfriend during the ride:
"oh God. Oh fuck. Oh shit... oh shit. oh God, oh fuck.... shit shit shit... ahhhh. ahhh.a hhhhha hhhha ahahahahaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh... fuckkk!!!! ohh fuck, we're going to hit it. ohhh fuckk ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh... damn, damn damn damn!!! fuckkkkkkkkkk"
ME DURING THE RIDE:
"wooohooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo hahahahhahahahaha woohooo. moreeee loopps!"
him after:
"Damn... i thought I was gonna die.."
ME AFTER:
"YUP!"


hahahahahahhahahahahahhahahahahhaha. you'll be the judge!

Daryll's affinity with animals.

So after all those shinannigans, we decided we'll do all the animals and stuff. AND IT WAS AMAZING. SPECAILLY WITH MANFRIEND.

Elephants:
We got there. there was an elephant bathing in the water. When manfriend got there, the elephant looked at him and never took his eye away from manfriend. Dude... then daryll extended his arms to the elephant, and the elephant extended his horns? nose? his thing to him. he was trying to reach manfriend. everyone just started saying " look look look at that guy. the elephant." it was just amazing.

Snake:
When I saw the person holding the snake, I wanted to get a picture with it. I asked the guy if it was sleeping, and he said, nah, it's just relaxing. so I took the picture, and the snake ddnt even do anything. so i posed, but i was scared! then people took pictures too but the snake did not move. But when it was daryll's turn, the snake moved, and looked at him directly. while I was taking the picture, the snake "kinda" posed with him.

Dolphins:
So right when we were going home, we decided we wanted to see shouka and the dolphins for the last time. I named the dolphine sam. It was just us and the lonely sam in the tank. then I wanted to take a picture with sam, but he was wondering around not paying attention to us. Then daryll made this weird eekkk sound and the dolphin came to the glass. we were there for 20 minutes because I couldn't live sam. When we were at the glass, we tried to do some hand signal to sam just for fun. I tried it, but sam ddn't bug or anything. when daryll tried it, OMG, it did some tricks. daryll made some circular motion through the glass and sam spun and spun. then we were amazed, and just thought it was just coincidence, so tried. but IT JUST NOT FOLLOWING ME. so then daryll waved at the dolphin, and the dolphin waved back. NO SERIOUSLY, NO KIDDING! like the one on the show. it did just that. then i wanted to take pictures with sam, then daryll gestured stay and it did stay upside down and it ddnt move!!! OMGGGGGGGGGG. it was so hard to live sam but we had too. I had teary eyes. no seriously. it's kinda like a freewilly movie kinda thing.

Dogs:
all the dogs goes crazy when daryll comes seriosly. they love him, even snotty cats! don't ask me why!!!



okay. that's it for now I guess. I'll continue my storyy next time. me had fun...


MOREE FUNNNNNNN.

weekend agenda with manfriend.

manfriends taking me to shopping tomorrow. yiieee

manfriends taking me tomorrow to a spa/massage place so i could relieve all my stress and stop bitching 24/7.

manfriend had a surprise for me, but i found out what it is. MARINE WORLD before school start.

manfriend got a raise. so me happy, coz me loves his money. GOLDIGGA. looll. muhahahahahahahah. buwaahahahaha. rararararara. too funny.

manfriend and I will go get a face paint too. muaahahahahaha. and fly at the rollercoaster. I will kill him. he hates rollercoaster. such opposite!

chopped!

As promised, a picture of my chopped hairrr. I realize I can only be crazy once in my life... or not! I can be crazy all the time. What I mean is, I can only play with my hair in some certain stage of my life. Why not play with it now! no more playing safe! so here you go. Wait for all the crazy things I'll do with it. P.S. I don't care what you say. FYI. lol. here's front view. bye mofoos

manfriend<3

So yesterday got some hairrr did. While me and jen were talking, I kinda randomly said why do we call our "boyfriends", boyfriend? they're not a boy anymore, as suppose to be a man. Well at our 20s, they're not boytoys, nor boys anymore. So I said, I will call my "boyfriend" MANFRIEND. so from now on, everytime I say manfriend, I'm talking about my MANboyfriend. hahahahha. thats all.


MANFRIEND<3. that's how his name shows on my phone every time he calls. and everytime it rings, it reminds me of how he is a man already, not a boy.

fin.

Got herr did.

I'll post pictures soon. when my damn camera works! Well anyways, apt. hunting is tiring. and I hate it! THE END!!!

surveys...

So I did this surveys on myspace. and yeah here you go. it's kinda interesting so im sharing.



How it works:
go on youtube and underneath every category, you put "your song" and just a little description why. it's a lot of work, but just try it. Just try it, it'll be fun. I promise.


for morning wake up song:


Hata motohori: because ummm... I like songs that I don't understand... I don't get fed up with them easily. it has really cool beat, I dance to it every morning.



for sad want to emo song:

wth? haha.

nough said. listen to it.


for flirty song:

the heck?!

ummm... hahahaha. love meeee.



for your ex song:



can't think of anything anymore.



for your bf/gf song, if not in relationship, future bf/gf:



oh my. this sums up my week and my boyfriend. thursday i don't care bout you him), friday I'm inlove. lol. jk. I love this version. the 80s feel.



for friendship song:

i guess. lol.




for your family song:



Heck! Well said! hahaha.


for your mom song:

I miss you ma.



for triumphant song:



for your ultimate favorite song:



The ultimate slow version... ULITiMATE? the hekc? hahaha. okayyyyyy ultimate. who use ultimate now a days? lol.




and lastly,


how do you feel song right now song:

6 years and some complaints.

So I have been in America for 6 years, exactly today. Not that long ei, but good enough for me to say that this is my home. Had some ups and downs, some struggles and victories, some memorable moments, and some I just want to forget. Found myself heart broken and falling in love over and over, finding and losing some one special. Finish H.S., started college. And will finish college. Making friends, and losing some, finding special and bests. so yay me!

Yesterday had a blast but half heartedly. Why? because I had a feeling that I'll be writing something here not so good. Haha.
Me and my sis went to vfair, attended the smashbox event. We had our make up done and it was pretty. I was pretty yesterday. Hah! We did some shopping. My sis got something from Tiffany's and co. and some make ups from smash box. Then we had lunch at the "make your own burger" place, I forgot the name, at Santana Row. Then we had our nails done at Lavande salon. I got yellow nails. pretty flashy, but hey, when you're old you can't do flashy things anymore. Right? soooo... I'm getting flashy now. I'm planning to cut my hair too. some drastic changes, but I'm still thinking. Then we went to watch Sister hood of the traveling pants 2 at Century 23. It was a pretty chill movie. Then after that, my sis dropped me of to Dianne's house around 940 pm. Geeessshhh. what a day.
Dianne, Jhen, Donna and I, went to Maggiano's at Santa. Ha. back to Santa again. we ate some desserts and talk about life in general.
So going home, dianne and I are talking about our school. So basically about loans and tuition fees. I don't want to disclose her issues, but this is all I have to say: Not all people wants to work for money, and not all people wants to take the easy route, and not all people are built to become a fucking nurse! No offense to those that are doing nursing, you're doing a good job, and I'm not saying it's easy, and not that you're working for money. but you know what I'm talking about. It's just sometimes PARENTS think they know everything about their child. It just makes me mad when they fucking criticize us for not being a nurse! HELLO! They think that the only job that will make us survive in this world is be a nurse. I know they want us to have a good life in the future, and yes, being a nurse would give us that, but hello, there are many OTHER jobs that will give us the same security but just different route. Jesus and Mary, help us. I am really mad. abbbrrrrrrr.......... It's a lost battle.

Pouring my heart out.

Okay fine. I'll tell you the story why I love the moon. It started when I was a kid. In my home town, where there were no city lights and I was living with my aunt back then. I was around 5 years of age, and I was alway on their roof. The house is where all my childhood was fun memories and most cherries ones. I think it was a full moon and my daddy bong will always tell me that a lot of crazy people comes out when its full moon. He said vampires and "manananggal" comes out when there is a full moon. That always made me scared and ran inside. Growing up, I was never really close with my Dad, and daddy bong was one of the man figures of my life. I look up to him and growing up I thought he was my dad.
Every full moon, he would always scare me, and I would always hide underneath the stairs. They would look for me for hours and hours, then to only find out that I was underneath the stairs. Then they got use to it, when it's full moon, daddy bong would always take me and never let go of my hands. all night. Every night I would always look up and see if it's full moon so I daddy bong would always take me and tell me stories about things. I was fond of daddy bong. I set my example for finding the right guy for me according to his standards. When I had my first boyfriend, I introduced him first to daddy bong. Daddy bong would always tell me this: "It doesn't matter how he looks like, as long as he's going to treat and respect you right and will not hurt you. Protect you and fight for you. Will show you how important you are to him no matter what, and above all ONLY YOU." And that's how I live by til now.
Every morning after full moon, we'd always go to dunkin donuts and we'll buy dozens of it. When I grew up, everytime I had some problems, I'd go to him. He'd always know what to say. Then when I was old enough to realize that there were no vampires and manananggal every full moon, I would always go to the roof or lay down in the grass every full moon and think about dunkin donuts and guys. haha. I miss daddy bong. I miss his words of wisdom. I miss it when he'd hold me and toss me around in the air. haha.

all I said was irrelevant to why I like the moon. haha. but the bottome line is, every time the moon comes, I would always think about my child hood, the good ones. God knows what kind of child hood I went thru. TRUST ME, IT WASN'T ALL NICE AND GOLD. 90% of it was hell. so every full moon, it reminds me of the 10% I had....

walkin.

Don't you just feel like sometimes you're walking and walking, but you're not getting anywhere? Exactly right? It's damn frustrating, I just want to like kill some bugs and insects when that happens!

Bipolar. ahahaha. talk about bipolar. Welcome to my world. One minute I'm so good and fine like a baby, then next thing you know I'm hella bitchy, a bitch from hell.

Sometimes when I'm hurt I keep them all inside, then I ask myself why the hell am I keeping it inside, then OUT OF NO WHERE.... i'll just be upset. maybe thats why i'm hella bipolar. hahahaha... So beware. coz i'm very unpredictable. but i have a lot of friends that doesnt mind it. lol. hahaha. they're use to it. hehehe. thank you!

shout out to dianne c. she's the only one reading my blogs. because she's bored the hell out of her brains! like me. lol.

tropic thunder.

before I end this day, I just want to say, Ben Stiller is the man! I'll but the DVD when it comes out and Robert Downey "dude" jr. will be in my room poster! HEE LLL AAR RRIIO USSS. like... foreals..................


"i don't read script, the script reads me." moment of pause....... "DUDE, THAT DOESNT MAKE SENSE..." fcuk funny. hella. goodnight!

soo...

hahaha. so i found this great song by one and only Mr. gabe bondoc.... It was just funny that i found this one, because of the poem I just found... You can read it there...down there... Well basically this song is what I wrote, well you know, the meaning of it. the diyes of it. but it's just in english... WHAT A COINKIDINKY!! great minds think a like... sike!

old school

So today I was looking through my old stuff. Highschool stuff. Old stuff. then I came across to this one poem I wrote it was dated 2003. DAYUMM. that loonnnggg. I don't know who I wrote it for, or even, I don't know if I wrote it for anyone. 2003? I was what? 16? sophomore or junior? hahahaha. 5 damn long years!!! It was tagalog too. haha. still a fob then......and this is how it goes:


Mahal kita, pero mahal mo sya
kahit masaktan, mamahalin parin kita
unang kita ko palang sayo
sabi ko,
ikaw na.

Alam kong kahit kailan
hanggang dito nalang
kaibigan...
di mo man pansin
okay lang.

Masaya ka alam ko
sa piling nya,
sino banaman ako
para humiling na maging sya
mahal mo sya

mahal kita
pero hanggang doon nalang
pagmamasdan nalang kita
dito
sa aking maliit na tuntunan.


....... so some words, i don't even know how I came up with it. haha. but it was nice to know, now that I'm 21, what I was thinking when I was 16. It's a good thing I kept my journals, and poems. But sadly, I don't have them with me. But once I get them, I will post every single poems I've had. tons of them! I had boxes of boxes of journals and random poems and people's memorandum.

It's so fun finding things like this, it's like christmas. You look back and laugh. I don't remember writing this poem, but sure it's mine. It's my handwriting alright. but anywayssss... if I find more, i'll post them. and laugh at it.

JM&KW

black guy and a white guy must meet! lol. funniest thing ever!

I think this would be my Wedding Song first dance; coming in ten years. I swear this would be it.
the song: BITTERSWEET by john mayer and kanye west. The geniuses combine, you get a really stupid sweet song!




Henneesssy, It'll be the death of me. I hate you but I need you. IT'S SO JUXTOPOSITION!


Heyyy I wear casio watch!

I love JM, I'm gonna marry him one day!!! i swear!!!! I will! Listen to daughters--bitches!

paper and benz.

So today, I was just sitting in the couch when finally I realized I'm actually 21! I AM TWENTY ONE! Then I saw the preview for the hills, and realize that Lauren is actually around my age. 23ish. And I said, Damn, they actually look older than I thought. And they're actually doing something in their life, well more than what I'm doing right now. I told myself this, "I should be acting my age." Then a question popped into my head, "What should a 21 year old actually be doing?"

My assessment:

I go to school, I'm getting my degree and I'm actually proud that I'm doing it. and it's not a joke that I'm a microbiology major. It's fucking hard and I'm not giving the best with my school. and i pass all my classes with descent grades, not just descent, good grades! not to brag or anything, (what the hell do I care what other people think? If i brag or not?! it's my fucking blog?!!! shit!) so anyways, what more IF I GIVE MY BEST SHOT?! i should probably be some fucking cumlaude of some shit? So I TOLD MYSELF, "hey, you know, you passed your classes without trying, SO FOR A CHANGE, TRY FOR FUCKING SAKE!" then I wrote on a piece of paper and said, "YOU! IF YOU GRADUATE WITH HONORS, OR YOU KNOW JUST GRADUATE AND YOU THINK YOU HELLA DESERVE IT, THE FIRST THING YOU DO IS GET YOURSELF A FUCKIN' MERCEDES BENZ!" then I folded it, and put it in my keepsake, and eventually I will forget about it till I find it next time, and hopefully i would graduate with flying colors, I would find that paper and remind myself to buy a mercedes benz!

I work.

I take care of myself.

I dress nice, maybe not as mature yet, but getting there. Not enough mula to change all my wardrobe, but I'm getting there.

I have a good looking boyfriend, who has a career of his own. that loves me, and me loves him. whose just a little bit girly, hahaha. I'm the boy. but you know, nothing gets better than that. I still wear the make up. lol.

I have friends.

I have family that supports me. Well you know.............. they're there for advices and some mula to help me.

I think I'm perfectly fine with my neurological thinking. just a little bit extreme on both sides.

I'm responsible for my actions, what I say and actually being responsible with my life. Well eversince, i've been.

I budget.

I enjoy everything that I have and sometimes wish and daydream.

THEN. I said, what else is missing?

I got up and turned off the T.V. and said, "fuck it, my life is not based on MTV! I have fun, and the most important part is I know what i want in life. and I'm having fun while doing it. FUCK HILLS."

opened a bag of chips and went on with my life, but this time with just a little bit of ATTITUDE. postive attitude.

The take home message is: don't envy people's life. instead of envy-ing them, you should turn that attitude towards your life so you could focus more on your life rather than wasting your time envying them. analyzing what they have that you don't. It's not easy doing that, and sometime you just can't help it. It's natural. Why else do you have blogs and myspace, to snitch around and see and brag about everything else about your life and their lives. Just stay on the ground and stay put, trust me, your life is better than anyone else's.

Yelp!

so I just signed up on YELP! because since I eat alot, and I eat everywhere, might as well use my knowledge and my experience from it. I seriously go everywhere just to see anything and eat everything! Wow! I JUST REALIZED HOW ADVENTUROUS I AM TILL NOW. hahaha. not! been like that since I was a kid.

that reminds me, when i was a kid, I spent most of my time on the dirt, the roof, and other's people houses. I was barely home, I played with worms and jumped like a boy in the water. HAHAHA. boy.... i was a boy. I remember I was teased that I was a tomboy. and i didn't wear panties back then. HAHAHAHa.

OKAY. next blog: my childhood. wait for it.! but anyways, I yelp now!

7 things:

I probably shouldn't say this
But at times I get so scared
When I think about the previous
Relationship we shared
It was awesome but we lost it
It's not possible for me not to care
And now we're standing in the rain
But nothing's ever gonna change until you hear
My dear

The seven things I hate about you
The seven things I hate about you
Oh you
You're vain, your games
You're insecure
You love me, you like her
You make me laugh
You make me cry
I don't know which side to buy
Your friends they're jerks
When you act like them
Just know it hurts
I wanna be with the one I know
And the seventh thing I hate the most that you do
You make me love you

It's awkward and its silent
As I wait for you to say
What I need to hear now
Your sincere apology
When you mean it I'll believe it
If you text it I'll delete it
Let's be clear
Oh, I'm not coming back
You're taking seven steps here


The seven things I hate about you
You're vain, your games
You're insecure
You love me, you like her
You make me laugh, you make me cry
I don't know which side to buy
Your friends they're jerks
When you act like them
Just know it hurts
I wanna be with the one I know
And the seventh thing I hate the most that you do
You make me love you

And compared to all the great things
That would take too long to write
I probably should mention the seven that I like

The seven things I like about you
Your hair, your eyes
Your old Levis
When we kiss I'm hypnotized
You make me laugh, you make me cry
But I guess that's both I'll have to buy
Your hand in mine
When we're intertwined
Everything's alright
I wanna be with the one I know
And the seventh thing I like the most that you do
You make me love you

You do, oh
Ooh, ooh, ooh oh
Ooh, ooh, ooh oh

-miley cyrus

i just thought he's the cutest thing ever. He's dancing to the tune of LOOOLLLLOOOLLIIPPOOPP... oh yeah!

1.

So, I decided to hop on to blogger from Xanga because I just feel like it. And I think it's easier to use. I have had my xanga for a while now, and I want change. I've notice that I need change, and so here, I'm changing everything. So from here on now, you can blog me here, I will update this frequently because MY LIFE HAS GOTTEN INTERESTING lately. hahaha. Here I will pour out all my shit and bs, happy thoughts and everything. So see you.