hii y'all!

CRAMPS ARE INSANELY BAD! i would trade to be a guy just for this! and the heat doesnt help either.

on the good note, i found my outfit for the wedding. wohoo. forever 21 loverocks. they make gold for my two cents. meowwh.

school!

So eversince school started, which is what? three days ago, I already had tons and pages of reading to do, some 5 pages prelab and write up, mind you I have two labs. So each lab is 5, depending how long is the expi. short expi=5pages of pre lab. so later on, I'll develop carpal tunnel writing pre labs. My schedule is hectic, but there are breaks in between thank God. I kinda like it this way, kinda hectic, because I am forced to do things as they are given. not like the other semesters where I procrastinate. Even though a lot of people are telling me that my load is hard, and the classes are hard, I find it the other way. As I said, I don't study much. I passed HS and transferred college without studying much. Those subjects that I did before are hard, hard for the most part and most people. I took physics 2B, calculus, Bio lec and lab, history, asian studies something and some other extra curricular activities on the side and still past it with good grades without studying. I guessed. lol. jk. This semester, I'm taking loads, no joke loads, with the most unfortunate teachers. I got the hardest teachers, no I did not wanted it but it was the only time I could fit in my schedule. SO CALL ME CRAZY, BUT I THINK THIS SEMESTER WITH MY LOAD IS FUN, CHALLENGING, HARD AND EASY. I don't know how I do it, but I'm doing it, and I will do it. I will get good grades and slap it on your face! lol. or anyone's face that says they can't take school load shit. take a look at mine and I'll bet you you'll die taking mine. I'm pretty sure there are a lot of people that are harder than mine, but I guess I'm up there with them. YUP. so the moral of this story is:

I'M REALLY SERIOUS ABOUT THIS SESMESTER AND YOU'LL BARELY SEE ME BECAUSE I'M BURRIED IN MY BOOKS AND STUDIES. NEXT TIME YOU'LL PASS BY ME, I'LL BE CARRYING ROLLER BAG--AND I WONT CARE! I'D RATHER SACRIFICE MY FASIONISTA ATTITUDE THAN CARRYING ALL THIS BOOKS AND LABS AND NOTES ON MY BACK! k bye.

something too funny for me.

When we were at six flags more fun, the first ride we did was medusa. on the line of medusa, there was a tv hanging and promoting you know anything. so this asian dude, the more flags dude, came on. he did his usual thing and saying.... but.... in the middle of it, it got stuck. like a broken recored where it'll just repeat that part where it stopped. so it went like this...

one flag,
not so fun.
six flags,
more FL....FLA..... FAGS... FAGS... FAGS.... FAGS... FAGS.... FAGS.... FAGS... FAGS....

MORE FUN!

hahahahahhaahah. buahahahahahwhahaha... rahahahahrrarararara!


me and manfriend just looked at each other and laugh like there's no tomorrow. and I think the people there kinda did not get why were laughing and got pissed. BUT I DDNT CARE! I HAD MY FACE PAINT, AND I LOOKED AWESOME. I COULDN'T CARE LESS! I just had my stomach ab work out.


oh and yah. school started today. long ass day. need to sleep. tomorrow long ass day.

fiiihhhiiiinnnnnn hinn hinnn hinnn..

Six flags, more flags, more funnnn!

Six flags was the best! It was a long overdue thing... but it was so fun. Like they said, there's always that kid inside you. AND I WAS A TOTAL SKIPPY JIPPY KID IN THERE! When we were watching the dolphins, OMG, I was more excited than most of the kids there. I ran for the front seat and i screamed the loudest to cheer! hahaha.

Me and daryll got face paint. I wanted to do that forever! I want to look like the cirque du soliel people. I wanted a butterfly, but I got better than a butterfly. It was the first thing that we did when we got there. straight to the face paint. wohoo. manfriend got the panda cute lil berr. hahaha.

So... so... soo.............. before we got to vallejo, I was bitchin like no other. I was so mad because manfriend forgot to feed me. and I did not wanna tell him that I'm hungry because of my sinful pride. hahahaha. bwhahaa. rararara. (why do I laugh like that?) so it was already noon when we got there, and I started bitchin! poor manfriend. :( I wanted him to feed me without asking, because I'm an eating machine! I eat 17 times a day!!! so what's the point of asking, just feed me. So by the time we were going to exit the last exit before flags, manfriend took me to mcdees, and feed me. the moment I got me food, I was a sweet baby again. no seriously, you'll fall head over heels if you see me like that. lol. hahaha. bwahahaha, rrararara (seriioussllyy?)

So when we got to six flagsss more funn, I went crazy like a kid. I acted like a kid. My voice like a kid, and my inner kid was out. I was not a 21 year old, I was a 5 year old! I even bough a lunch box, a justice league lunch box! rararararara!!! so we rode all the rides there, and manfriend was a pussy. Before we got to six flaggsss more funnn, manfriend and I had a bet who's more pussier. Me or him. yep! HIMMMMM.... it's definitely a sight to see and hear when we were at the roller coaster!!!!


re-inact:
Manfriend before the ride:
"Let's see who's the pussy now. lets see who screams the loudest.. pshhh....."
ME NO REACTION..." LALALALALA. "
manfriend during the ride:
"oh God. Oh fuck. Oh shit... oh shit. oh God, oh fuck.... shit shit shit... ahhhh. ahhh.a hhhhha hhhha ahahahahaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh... fuckkk!!!! ohh fuck, we're going to hit it. ohhh fuckk ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh... damn, damn damn damn!!! fuckkkkkkkkkk"
ME DURING THE RIDE:
"wooohooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo hahahahhahahahaha woohooo. moreeee loopps!"
him after:
"Damn... i thought I was gonna die.."
ME AFTER:
"YUP!"


hahahahahahhahahahahahhahahahahhaha. you'll be the judge!

Daryll's affinity with animals.

So after all those shinannigans, we decided we'll do all the animals and stuff. AND IT WAS AMAZING. SPECAILLY WITH MANFRIEND.

Elephants:
We got there. there was an elephant bathing in the water. When manfriend got there, the elephant looked at him and never took his eye away from manfriend. Dude... then daryll extended his arms to the elephant, and the elephant extended his horns? nose? his thing to him. he was trying to reach manfriend. everyone just started saying " look look look at that guy. the elephant." it was just amazing.

Snake:
When I saw the person holding the snake, I wanted to get a picture with it. I asked the guy if it was sleeping, and he said, nah, it's just relaxing. so I took the picture, and the snake ddnt even do anything. so i posed, but i was scared! then people took pictures too but the snake did not move. But when it was daryll's turn, the snake moved, and looked at him directly. while I was taking the picture, the snake "kinda" posed with him.

Dolphins:
So right when we were going home, we decided we wanted to see shouka and the dolphins for the last time. I named the dolphine sam. It was just us and the lonely sam in the tank. then I wanted to take a picture with sam, but he was wondering around not paying attention to us. Then daryll made this weird eekkk sound and the dolphin came to the glass. we were there for 20 minutes because I couldn't live sam. When we were at the glass, we tried to do some hand signal to sam just for fun. I tried it, but sam ddn't bug or anything. when daryll tried it, OMG, it did some tricks. daryll made some circular motion through the glass and sam spun and spun. then we were amazed, and just thought it was just coincidence, so tried. but IT JUST NOT FOLLOWING ME. so then daryll waved at the dolphin, and the dolphin waved back. NO SERIOUSLY, NO KIDDING! like the one on the show. it did just that. then i wanted to take pictures with sam, then daryll gestured stay and it did stay upside down and it ddnt move!!! OMGGGGGGGGGG. it was so hard to live sam but we had too. I had teary eyes. no seriously. it's kinda like a freewilly movie kinda thing.

Dogs:
all the dogs goes crazy when daryll comes seriosly. they love him, even snotty cats! don't ask me why!!!



okay. that's it for now I guess. I'll continue my storyy next time. me had fun...


MOREE FUNNNNNNN.

weekend agenda with manfriend.

manfriends taking me to shopping tomorrow. yiieee

manfriends taking me tomorrow to a spa/massage place so i could relieve all my stress and stop bitching 24/7.

manfriend had a surprise for me, but i found out what it is. MARINE WORLD before school start.

manfriend got a raise. so me happy, coz me loves his money. GOLDIGGA. looll. muhahahahahahahah. buwaahahahaha. rararararara. too funny.

manfriend and I will go get a face paint too. muaahahahahaha. and fly at the rollercoaster. I will kill him. he hates rollercoaster. such opposite!

chopped!

As promised, a picture of my chopped hairrr. I realize I can only be crazy once in my life... or not! I can be crazy all the time. What I mean is, I can only play with my hair in some certain stage of my life. Why not play with it now! no more playing safe! so here you go. Wait for all the crazy things I'll do with it. P.S. I don't care what you say. FYI. lol. here's front view. bye mofoos

manfriend<3

So yesterday got some hairrr did. While me and jen were talking, I kinda randomly said why do we call our "boyfriends", boyfriend? they're not a boy anymore, as suppose to be a man. Well at our 20s, they're not boytoys, nor boys anymore. So I said, I will call my "boyfriend" MANFRIEND. so from now on, everytime I say manfriend, I'm talking about my MANboyfriend. hahahahha. thats all.


MANFRIEND<3. that's how his name shows on my phone every time he calls. and everytime it rings, it reminds me of how he is a man already, not a boy.

fin.

Got herr did.

I'll post pictures soon. when my damn camera works! Well anyways, apt. hunting is tiring. and I hate it! THE END!!!

surveys...

So I did this surveys on myspace. and yeah here you go. it's kinda interesting so im sharing.



How it works:
go on youtube and underneath every category, you put "your song" and just a little description why. it's a lot of work, but just try it. Just try it, it'll be fun. I promise.


for morning wake up song:


Hata motohori: because ummm... I like songs that I don't understand... I don't get fed up with them easily. it has really cool beat, I dance to it every morning.



for sad want to emo song:

wth? haha.

nough said. listen to it.


for flirty song:

the heck?!

ummm... hahahaha. love meeee.



for your ex song:



can't think of anything anymore.



for your bf/gf song, if not in relationship, future bf/gf:



oh my. this sums up my week and my boyfriend. thursday i don't care bout you him), friday I'm inlove. lol. jk. I love this version. the 80s feel.



for friendship song:

i guess. lol.




for your family song:



Heck! Well said! hahaha.


for your mom song:

I miss you ma.



for triumphant song:



for your ultimate favorite song:



The ultimate slow version... ULITiMATE? the hekc? hahaha. okayyyyyy ultimate. who use ultimate now a days? lol.




and lastly,


how do you feel song right now song:

6 years and some complaints.

So I have been in America for 6 years, exactly today. Not that long ei, but good enough for me to say that this is my home. Had some ups and downs, some struggles and victories, some memorable moments, and some I just want to forget. Found myself heart broken and falling in love over and over, finding and losing some one special. Finish H.S., started college. And will finish college. Making friends, and losing some, finding special and bests. so yay me!

Yesterday had a blast but half heartedly. Why? because I had a feeling that I'll be writing something here not so good. Haha.
Me and my sis went to vfair, attended the smashbox event. We had our make up done and it was pretty. I was pretty yesterday. Hah! We did some shopping. My sis got something from Tiffany's and co. and some make ups from smash box. Then we had lunch at the "make your own burger" place, I forgot the name, at Santana Row. Then we had our nails done at Lavande salon. I got yellow nails. pretty flashy, but hey, when you're old you can't do flashy things anymore. Right? soooo... I'm getting flashy now. I'm planning to cut my hair too. some drastic changes, but I'm still thinking. Then we went to watch Sister hood of the traveling pants 2 at Century 23. It was a pretty chill movie. Then after that, my sis dropped me of to Dianne's house around 940 pm. Geeessshhh. what a day.
Dianne, Jhen, Donna and I, went to Maggiano's at Santa. Ha. back to Santa again. we ate some desserts and talk about life in general.
So going home, dianne and I are talking about our school. So basically about loans and tuition fees. I don't want to disclose her issues, but this is all I have to say: Not all people wants to work for money, and not all people wants to take the easy route, and not all people are built to become a fucking nurse! No offense to those that are doing nursing, you're doing a good job, and I'm not saying it's easy, and not that you're working for money. but you know what I'm talking about. It's just sometimes PARENTS think they know everything about their child. It just makes me mad when they fucking criticize us for not being a nurse! HELLO! They think that the only job that will make us survive in this world is be a nurse. I know they want us to have a good life in the future, and yes, being a nurse would give us that, but hello, there are many OTHER jobs that will give us the same security but just different route. Jesus and Mary, help us. I am really mad. abbbrrrrrrr.......... It's a lost battle.

Pouring my heart out.

Okay fine. I'll tell you the story why I love the moon. It started when I was a kid. In my home town, where there were no city lights and I was living with my aunt back then. I was around 5 years of age, and I was alway on their roof. The house is where all my childhood was fun memories and most cherries ones. I think it was a full moon and my daddy bong will always tell me that a lot of crazy people comes out when its full moon. He said vampires and "manananggal" comes out when there is a full moon. That always made me scared and ran inside. Growing up, I was never really close with my Dad, and daddy bong was one of the man figures of my life. I look up to him and growing up I thought he was my dad.
Every full moon, he would always scare me, and I would always hide underneath the stairs. They would look for me for hours and hours, then to only find out that I was underneath the stairs. Then they got use to it, when it's full moon, daddy bong would always take me and never let go of my hands. all night. Every night I would always look up and see if it's full moon so I daddy bong would always take me and tell me stories about things. I was fond of daddy bong. I set my example for finding the right guy for me according to his standards. When I had my first boyfriend, I introduced him first to daddy bong. Daddy bong would always tell me this: "It doesn't matter how he looks like, as long as he's going to treat and respect you right and will not hurt you. Protect you and fight for you. Will show you how important you are to him no matter what, and above all ONLY YOU." And that's how I live by til now.
Every morning after full moon, we'd always go to dunkin donuts and we'll buy dozens of it. When I grew up, everytime I had some problems, I'd go to him. He'd always know what to say. Then when I was old enough to realize that there were no vampires and manananggal every full moon, I would always go to the roof or lay down in the grass every full moon and think about dunkin donuts and guys. haha. I miss daddy bong. I miss his words of wisdom. I miss it when he'd hold me and toss me around in the air. haha.

all I said was irrelevant to why I like the moon. haha. but the bottome line is, every time the moon comes, I would always think about my child hood, the good ones. God knows what kind of child hood I went thru. TRUST ME, IT WASN'T ALL NICE AND GOLD. 90% of it was hell. so every full moon, it reminds me of the 10% I had....

walkin.

Don't you just feel like sometimes you're walking and walking, but you're not getting anywhere? Exactly right? It's damn frustrating, I just want to like kill some bugs and insects when that happens!

Bipolar. ahahaha. talk about bipolar. Welcome to my world. One minute I'm so good and fine like a baby, then next thing you know I'm hella bitchy, a bitch from hell.

Sometimes when I'm hurt I keep them all inside, then I ask myself why the hell am I keeping it inside, then OUT OF NO WHERE.... i'll just be upset. maybe thats why i'm hella bipolar. hahahaha... So beware. coz i'm very unpredictable. but i have a lot of friends that doesnt mind it. lol. hahaha. they're use to it. hehehe. thank you!

shout out to dianne c. she's the only one reading my blogs. because she's bored the hell out of her brains! like me. lol.

tropic thunder.

before I end this day, I just want to say, Ben Stiller is the man! I'll but the DVD when it comes out and Robert Downey "dude" jr. will be in my room poster! HEE LLL AAR RRIIO USSS. like... foreals..................


"i don't read script, the script reads me." moment of pause....... "DUDE, THAT DOESNT MAKE SENSE..." fcuk funny. hella. goodnight!

soo...

hahaha. so i found this great song by one and only Mr. gabe bondoc.... It was just funny that i found this one, because of the poem I just found... You can read it there...down there... Well basically this song is what I wrote, well you know, the meaning of it. the diyes of it. but it's just in english... WHAT A COINKIDINKY!! great minds think a like... sike!

old school

So today I was looking through my old stuff. Highschool stuff. Old stuff. then I came across to this one poem I wrote it was dated 2003. DAYUMM. that loonnnggg. I don't know who I wrote it for, or even, I don't know if I wrote it for anyone. 2003? I was what? 16? sophomore or junior? hahahaha. 5 damn long years!!! It was tagalog too. haha. still a fob then......and this is how it goes:


Mahal kita, pero mahal mo sya
kahit masaktan, mamahalin parin kita
unang kita ko palang sayo
sabi ko,
ikaw na.

Alam kong kahit kailan
hanggang dito nalang
kaibigan...
di mo man pansin
okay lang.

Masaya ka alam ko
sa piling nya,
sino banaman ako
para humiling na maging sya
mahal mo sya

mahal kita
pero hanggang doon nalang
pagmamasdan nalang kita
dito
sa aking maliit na tuntunan.


....... so some words, i don't even know how I came up with it. haha. but it was nice to know, now that I'm 21, what I was thinking when I was 16. It's a good thing I kept my journals, and poems. But sadly, I don't have them with me. But once I get them, I will post every single poems I've had. tons of them! I had boxes of boxes of journals and random poems and people's memorandum.

It's so fun finding things like this, it's like christmas. You look back and laugh. I don't remember writing this poem, but sure it's mine. It's my handwriting alright. but anywayssss... if I find more, i'll post them. and laugh at it.

JM&KW

black guy and a white guy must meet! lol. funniest thing ever!

I think this would be my Wedding Song first dance; coming in ten years. I swear this would be it.
the song: BITTERSWEET by john mayer and kanye west. The geniuses combine, you get a really stupid sweet song!




Henneesssy, It'll be the death of me. I hate you but I need you. IT'S SO JUXTOPOSITION!


Heyyy I wear casio watch!

I love JM, I'm gonna marry him one day!!! i swear!!!! I will! Listen to daughters--bitches!

paper and benz.

So today, I was just sitting in the couch when finally I realized I'm actually 21! I AM TWENTY ONE! Then I saw the preview for the hills, and realize that Lauren is actually around my age. 23ish. And I said, Damn, they actually look older than I thought. And they're actually doing something in their life, well more than what I'm doing right now. I told myself this, "I should be acting my age." Then a question popped into my head, "What should a 21 year old actually be doing?"

My assessment:

I go to school, I'm getting my degree and I'm actually proud that I'm doing it. and it's not a joke that I'm a microbiology major. It's fucking hard and I'm not giving the best with my school. and i pass all my classes with descent grades, not just descent, good grades! not to brag or anything, (what the hell do I care what other people think? If i brag or not?! it's my fucking blog?!!! shit!) so anyways, what more IF I GIVE MY BEST SHOT?! i should probably be some fucking cumlaude of some shit? So I TOLD MYSELF, "hey, you know, you passed your classes without trying, SO FOR A CHANGE, TRY FOR FUCKING SAKE!" then I wrote on a piece of paper and said, "YOU! IF YOU GRADUATE WITH HONORS, OR YOU KNOW JUST GRADUATE AND YOU THINK YOU HELLA DESERVE IT, THE FIRST THING YOU DO IS GET YOURSELF A FUCKIN' MERCEDES BENZ!" then I folded it, and put it in my keepsake, and eventually I will forget about it till I find it next time, and hopefully i would graduate with flying colors, I would find that paper and remind myself to buy a mercedes benz!

I work.

I take care of myself.

I dress nice, maybe not as mature yet, but getting there. Not enough mula to change all my wardrobe, but I'm getting there.

I have a good looking boyfriend, who has a career of his own. that loves me, and me loves him. whose just a little bit girly, hahaha. I'm the boy. but you know, nothing gets better than that. I still wear the make up. lol.

I have friends.

I have family that supports me. Well you know.............. they're there for advices and some mula to help me.

I think I'm perfectly fine with my neurological thinking. just a little bit extreme on both sides.

I'm responsible for my actions, what I say and actually being responsible with my life. Well eversince, i've been.

I budget.

I enjoy everything that I have and sometimes wish and daydream.

THEN. I said, what else is missing?

I got up and turned off the T.V. and said, "fuck it, my life is not based on MTV! I have fun, and the most important part is I know what i want in life. and I'm having fun while doing it. FUCK HILLS."

opened a bag of chips and went on with my life, but this time with just a little bit of ATTITUDE. postive attitude.

The take home message is: don't envy people's life. instead of envy-ing them, you should turn that attitude towards your life so you could focus more on your life rather than wasting your time envying them. analyzing what they have that you don't. It's not easy doing that, and sometime you just can't help it. It's natural. Why else do you have blogs and myspace, to snitch around and see and brag about everything else about your life and their lives. Just stay on the ground and stay put, trust me, your life is better than anyone else's.

Yelp!

so I just signed up on YELP! because since I eat alot, and I eat everywhere, might as well use my knowledge and my experience from it. I seriously go everywhere just to see anything and eat everything! Wow! I JUST REALIZED HOW ADVENTUROUS I AM TILL NOW. hahaha. not! been like that since I was a kid.

that reminds me, when i was a kid, I spent most of my time on the dirt, the roof, and other's people houses. I was barely home, I played with worms and jumped like a boy in the water. HAHAHA. boy.... i was a boy. I remember I was teased that I was a tomboy. and i didn't wear panties back then. HAHAHAHa.

OKAY. next blog: my childhood. wait for it.! but anyways, I yelp now!

7 things:

I probably shouldn't say this
But at times I get so scared
When I think about the previous
Relationship we shared
It was awesome but we lost it
It's not possible for me not to care
And now we're standing in the rain
But nothing's ever gonna change until you hear
My dear

The seven things I hate about you
The seven things I hate about you
Oh you
You're vain, your games
You're insecure
You love me, you like her
You make me laugh
You make me cry
I don't know which side to buy
Your friends they're jerks
When you act like them
Just know it hurts
I wanna be with the one I know
And the seventh thing I hate the most that you do
You make me love you

It's awkward and its silent
As I wait for you to say
What I need to hear now
Your sincere apology
When you mean it I'll believe it
If you text it I'll delete it
Let's be clear
Oh, I'm not coming back
You're taking seven steps here


The seven things I hate about you
You're vain, your games
You're insecure
You love me, you like her
You make me laugh, you make me cry
I don't know which side to buy
Your friends they're jerks
When you act like them
Just know it hurts
I wanna be with the one I know
And the seventh thing I hate the most that you do
You make me love you

And compared to all the great things
That would take too long to write
I probably should mention the seven that I like

The seven things I like about you
Your hair, your eyes
Your old Levis
When we kiss I'm hypnotized
You make me laugh, you make me cry
But I guess that's both I'll have to buy
Your hand in mine
When we're intertwined
Everything's alright
I wanna be with the one I know
And the seventh thing I like the most that you do
You make me love you

You do, oh
Ooh, ooh, ooh oh
Ooh, ooh, ooh oh

-miley cyrus

i just thought he's the cutest thing ever. He's dancing to the tune of LOOOLLLLOOOLLIIPPOOPP... oh yeah!

1.

So, I decided to hop on to blogger from Xanga because I just feel like it. And I think it's easier to use. I have had my xanga for a while now, and I want change. I've notice that I need change, and so here, I'm changing everything. So from here on now, you can blog me here, I will update this frequently because MY LIFE HAS GOTTEN INTERESTING lately. hahaha. Here I will pour out all my shit and bs, happy thoughts and everything. So see you.