Birthday girl

I AM 22 IN TWO WEEKS! ahhh. not fun, not fun, not fun at all. I FEEL OLD! eeeekkkk. I know people would say it's not bad... BUTTT BUTT. BUTTT...

OKAY... this is why I kinda dread turning 22. I feel like I have not done anything at all. Before, when I was young, when you say your 22, you already did something, have somehting, or doing or you have something...... but in reality, right now.... I have nothing... Well except for my gorgeous friends whom I think are the most awesomest friend ever. I could have never asked for anyone else but them...

But you know, there's still that side of me that yearns for some goals and achievement in life.

1.) GRADUATEEEEEE!!! I want to graduate, but there are some circumstances that are not letting me to.
2.) I'm broke............... I want money. Graduating and finding a job would surely help. Recession is not helping. Please economy drink your medicine and your airborn, get better and be lively again. Coz I love you, and a lot of people needs you.
3.) A car. But I can't drive for the love of God. I'd rather stay alive and just yearn to drive... BUT ONE DAY... SOMEDAY..... I WILL.... A white sexy car will do for me.
4.) Eat and Travel, I want to eat and travel! I want to go everywhere! I swearrrr with or without anyone. I will climb the machu pichu, Eat at the streets of rome and greece. have the sand run through my fingers, wake up right next a big island. I DON'T KNOW. ANYWHERE, ANYTHING WILL DO. I WANT TO TRAVEL AND BE A SAVAGE!
5.) LOVEEEEE. welll..... I am. I am alway. will always and will for surely love till i can't anymore.


I'm having identity crisis. I know it's not that time, It should be around 25 and you'll realize in life of what you really want, and what you are. But I'm having it prematurely. I'm having it early on in life at 21 before turning 22 in 2 weeks. Lately I have been going back to being childish, welllllllllll.... I'm immature no matter what anyways. Maybe even if I'm 79 I will still act like I'm 12 or something. I'm a kid at heart no matter what, but at this time of "now" I'm looking for myself. I know it's early, but like what I said, I'm having it prematurely. I wanna know what I want, I wanna know what I wanna do.

Right now, there's only one thing that I know I want, don't wanna loose and I'm really scared of not having...... That's all for now. Take it one step at a time, and no matter what this time, I'm not letting it go.

22 in two weeks. NOTE TO MY FUTURE SELF: hi, I just want you to know that no matter what, full fill your dreams, your goals and stop telling yourself the "what ifss" JUST DO IT. DON'T HESITATE, JUST DO IT. :)