been super duper busy

life has been a roller coaster for the past months. and seriously, roller coaster. LIKE ROLLER. COASTER. FAAAHHH, i can't complain. JOB, HUSBAND, DAUGHTER, SCHOOL AND BEING SO MUCH PRODUCTIVE, I have so much in my plate, plus friends? fahhh. i love my life. but so much things going on. SOOOO MUCHHH!!!

FYI

I am laughing because you compare yourself to me. I think it's a pity. You have everything, and all the means to rise above everything, yet you compare yourself to ME. My life has been unfortunate, unfortunately, but I did not choose to be unfortunate. It was given to me. I did not have chances like you did, but HERE I AM. Being totally compared to you. Though, I think we're incomparable, I think with my unfortunate back to back circumstances, I STILL RISE ABOVE YOU. So what does that make me and make you? Equal? nope!!! not even, because I came from nothing and made it into something. You? you came from something and now nothing. so. ei. whatever works for you.

ps.

bitch.

Day 11: your family

Nough' said.
(some family members are missing, but they're still in my heart.)

Day 10: put on your music on shuffle, and write the first ten that plays.

1. Sorry, I don't have patient to wait for 10 songs.
2. Though, I have iphone, ipod, itunes, I DON'T KNOW HOW TO PUT MUSIC IN IT. lol.
3. so 3, I don't have music and I don't shuffle. lol.

I use pandora? that counts?

Day 9: How important you think education is

I think, education is essential and very important. Though, education is not SCHOOL education is not for everyone, but everyone should try it. Education comes in all forms, self taught and the one you pay thousands of dollars just to get a piece of diploma saying you are definitely educated. See, my point is this:

There are those people that went to school, paid hella dollars and are still dumb as fck. And there are those people that did not went to school, but are so smart that I could have intelligent conversation with. For example, my Mr. He did not get the chance to go to college but talk to him about Physics, science, biology, religion, history, math and computer, he can definitely can answer you intellectually.

So my point is, EDUCATION is important, it doesn't matter where you got it, as long as you educate yourself.

Day 8: what you ate today

nothing fancy.

In order:

1. Pinakbet with rice
2. yogurt
3. Banana
4. Cherry coke, (1/3 of the can)
5. Stick-O
6. Corned Beef with rice
7. Chips with Guacamole
8. Popcorn

Day 7: Five pet peeves

PET PEEVES! damn, it only asked for 5, I have million of pet peeves!
But I guess, these are my top 5.

WARNING: I MAY TURN INTO GHETTO WHILE TYPING.

1. EXAGGERATION: fckkk, just the sound of it irks the hell out of me. Don't exaggerate things when you are talking to me. Trust, I know when you are. I have lived my life long enough to know when you are exaggerating. Tell me how it went down, no more no less! HOW HARD IS THAT?

2. WAITING: I hate waiting! oh men. I HATE WAITING! oh then I wait, then you makes excuses and LIES to cover up... men....................... men... oh men... It's okay for you to be 5-10 min late, but 30?! You'll for sure hear from me.

3. SELF PITY: no doug, that doesn't work for me. Don't call me and tell me your sad sad story in your life... It happened, it did not kill you, you're obviously alive, move on, you are stronger DEAL WITH IT! Yes, you are damaged, but so does everybody else. Stop lingering on the past, and deal with your future.

4. SELF CENTERED BITCHES/ KNOW IT ALL JERKS: oh damn! People that are TOO self centered gives me allergies. LADIES: I have this intimidating face for a reason. Woman like you that are self centered. I have this fuck off face. When I put that face on, that means you are one of those self centered bitches that I hate. JERKS: Go get your attention from somebody else's. I know you are smart and all, but if you wanna share your knowledge, DO IT IN MODERATION. thank you.

5. When I'm talking, I AM TALKING. When it's your turn, I will lend my ears. Don't talk over me. I WILL CUT YOU!

Day 6: your view on mainstream music

I love it. PERIOD. I have nothing against it. As long as my ears like it, its fine.

Day 5: things you wanna say to an ex

to me, exes are friends not enemy. They are exes for a reason, but they are not enemies. At one point, they were part of your life, it just so happened they did not cut it through and through. So the part were you guys shared together are worth keeping, because they are memories, and one day, you get to tell those memories to your future children... but non-the-less... I have things to say to a particular EX!

1. The things that your mom had said to me are unacceptable. And YOU know they are lies! and YOU still let your mom talk shit about me with people. I am somebody elses daughter, friend-- I was once someone in your life, and just coz we broke up, you let your family dirtied my name. WHAT A SHAME. I AM BITTER. no not because we broke up but because you let them do that.

2. I am gladdddddddddddddddddddd I broke it up! I just don't think LYING is the way to my heart.

3. At least we are both happy now.

4. It's not like he's gonna read this anyways. lol. Just sayin.......

BUT ANYWAYS, to all my exes, you guys still have spot in my heart. I love you all. <3 Stay in touch.

my 24th.

for over a year of alcohol haitus, I drank again. And I'm telling you, it was a definite experience. It rocked! hahaha.

we got in the club at 1030, got kicked out at 1230! whackk! but between those hours, it was fckng awesome! I got drunk, buzzed, threw up in the trash can, and it was my first time blacking out! For the most part, I would do it all over again, except for the the blacking out part! I was seriously seeing black spots. fck! hahaha. If I had continued drinking, I would probably had alcohol poisoning. It was non-the-less a happy birthday!

Mr. was there to support me. And oh my God, I love him with every molecules of my being. I swear! He's the best husband in the whole wide world. Though, I was missing my little one, I love partying again, once in a while. I got home, and I seriously missed my little one. I love my life.

here are some lovely tainted pictures.

Day 4: bullet your day

My day today is pretty much boring!!!

- woke up at 11 am
- stayed in bed with Bonnie til' 12 noon
- ate at 1 pm with Jude
- watched odditites the whole day
- did not shower or change lol.
- stayed home the whole day
- and now I'm writing a blog.

- the end.

Day 3: A book you love

A book that I love?!

I have read a lot of books. But the one things that I absolutely love is The Alchemist, by Paulo Cohleo.

After reading the book, my life has never been the same. You gotta read it in order for you to understand it. It's life changing...

Day 2: (late) Something you feel strongly about.

ANTI-ABORTION

If you can't handle the consequences after having sex, THEN DON'T HAVE SEX, or practice safe sex!!! But, if "un"fortunately, your girl or you got pregnant, DEAL WITH IT! I know it's your body, I know it's your life... BUT POOR KID! Getting aborted for your foolishness, or lack of responsibility. If you don't want her/him, still have it--then get it adopted. A lot of options out there, but pleaseeee don't kill it.


"WHEN YOU TURNED AWAY FROM A BLESSING, IT BECOMES A CURSE"-anonymous.


It is not about religion, or anything, I just strongly believe that everyone needs a chance to survive and fight in this world. And if you can't handle having a baby, then DON'T HAVE SEX! Don't put yourself in a predicament that leads you to having sex!

Thankyou!

Day 1: Five ways to win your heart

.... Hmmm. 5 ways to win MY heart?

1. Foodies. I love it when I'm surrounded by people that WANTS and CONSTANTLY exploring their palette, and actually enjoying it. I've had my shares of food, and I love sharing my experiences with others, foods and everything I've eaten. I'm so obliged and happy when you text or call me and say, "hey, wanna eat at this new restaurant?" or "Hey, let's try exotic food." If I hear you say that, my heart gets fat!

2. Humor me. But please while doing that, no harm done to others. I don't like rough humor. I'm into sarcastic humor. Inside jokes humor.

3. Little things counts on my book. When I say little things, I mean it. LITTLE. THINGS. COUNT. ON. MY. BOOK.

3.5. Superficial sometimes wins my heart. The way you dress, you move, the swag, smells good... (LOL).

4. You know how to get along. ENOUGH SAID.

5. Brains and common sense! TALK TO ME. I don't care if you are an educated person, got some good schooling from good school, have pHd from somewhere high paying school. But if you don't know how to use common sense, and talk to me like a person, damn, I won't even consider talking or being friends with you for a second. AND, If you are too dumb, to even conversate with me? forget it. I want to have a conversation with you, if you are boring, forget it too.
you don't have to be school educated, to ride and die with me. You just need to have a common sense, and some other senses to catch my attention. getS?

30 day challenge.

I've been seeing people on facebook doing this 30 day challenge. So I decided, hey why not do the same thing. keeps me occupied (as if I'm not occupied enough). Well no, I just wanna see if I can keep up straight 30 days blogging... as if people read my blog. lol. Well, it's for me, it's my own sake. Lately, I have not been doing anything religiously, so maybe, I could start on this and finish it, I could probably do more and more each day. Okay, Start, day one.

if only

I had the resources then.... I would have been so much MORE right now.
But oh well, I had to deal what I had and made the best out of it...

I'm just throwing it out there. I have no regrets, I was just thinking out loud. But now worries, I can and I know I will make better life for me and my family... In time, in due time.

once again, Just thinking out loud.

I need intellectual discussions and reading...

Because so I think I'm getting dumber by the second. LOL. My brain is not functioning well now a days. I forget words.......... literally. I find myself staring and forgetting what I want to say. I have forgotten how to converse properly, like an educated person.

I spend most of my days taking care of Bonnie. Most of the time, we goo-goo-ga-ga. When I read, I read journals, scientific journals to keep me updated with biology life. So actual conversation doesn't happen till Mr. comes home. When we do converse, our conversation is exceptionally funny. I've gotten use to him, but non-the-less, it's still conversation.

From now on, I will try to read more books, conversational books and read it to Bonnie.

PS.

Mothers day was spectacular. My first mommy's day. I love it. I LOVE IT.

Presenting: BLTS

<3. the love of my life.

Bon bon!

is here!!!! :)

:)

I just want to say that He seriosuly surprises me as times goes by. I never lift a finger this past few months. Cooking. Cleaning. Moving. Everything. Im so pampered. And now I got a masaage. Wowssss! I dont deserve this. Despite that I have nothing but a needy bratyyy brat brat!

I confess, before everything, I thought its going to be the same as my past relationships, not to compare or anything, but this one is seriously on the pedestal level. Though he did not went to college, the things I learned from him, is beyonnnddddd what I have learned and what other smart asses I talk to and have conversations with. He learned all his stuff by himself. I am
Shock everytime. Really serious

I dare you

I seriously think Adele made this song for me and Jude. Lol. well, mostly because our story is this song... Both scared to dare even try with each other, SOOO SCARED to fail with one another...




but in the end, it's all worth it. WORTH. ALL. THE. WAIT.

I'M TELLING YOU FIRST HAND.

I had some flash back listening to this song, that I had some butterflies.

Bonnieeeee

Come out! Im really curious u look like!


-on the run blogging

Fujjjin annoyed!!!

Okay. From now on, if you need me or want need anything and call me, im going to let it ring and ring and ring until you text me and say, hey are you free??? Because seriously this im fukkin annoyed!

Friends call me at 1am, 6am, 9pm, 3pm, 11:59 pm all sorts of time and number, and if i
Missed their calls, i would call back or text back!! Because seriously, what if something happened or something..... I'd pick up and talk even if i cant
Talk! Ill reply and answer stupid same damn fuckin questions! Ill give advice and be nice about it! Now I know... Because its me. I cant blame them. I expect the same ettiquete rules of picking Up and calling back from them which I dont get. Coz if im in class or doing something and they call or text, I would reply and say I cant talk in class call you later!!!

But them!??!?!??? Nooooooooo. They'll let me ring and ring and ring. If theyre sleeping, theyll just let it ring. If im sleeping and theyd call, ill wake up and answer! If they need pills, ill answer and get it. If they need something, in the middle of the day, i'd go (if i have a ride) and be there! Pronto. No questions asks. I have my phone with me and it rings, ill answer. I dont go look at it and say.... Ohhhh its just mai ill answer later. My phone rings and its downstairs, ill go downstairs and get it. If im in the shower, ill hop out and answer. If Im currently doing something, ill fuckin answer!

I know this people. Ive seen them and ive been with them! Ive never seen them walk WITHOUT their phones on hand. And for me to call them and ring and ring.... And let it ring. Its RUDE! so rude! What a phone ettiquette! Pshhh. Some bullshit. They even check theire phone while in the club blasting 900 thousand decibels of volume in their ears of music, and they CANNNNN hear their phone when theyre boyfriends are calling or a boy is calling...

Ahhh fuck this! From now on, if you wanna talk to me, call or text jude and i'll relay my message to him! Yes. Im mad. Super mad!!!


-on the run blogging

I do.

I do. I do. I do.

And it won't be human of me to not admit it but I do. I do get jealous of other people. I do the what ifs and ifs. But at the end of the day, I KNOW I'M REALLY HAPPY WHERE I AM. Things happen for a reason. I am not them maybe because, if I were them, I wouldn't be as happy as I am right now.

I'm confident that I will achieve that kind of stature in life someday, but not right now. In due time. In due time.

funny in my ears

Me sitting on the couch, Jude in the kitchen fixing dinner:

me: babe, my fingers are fat :(
J: no babe, they're not... you're pregnant, it's okay.
me: yeah they are. Fatter than before
J: oh okay.
me: so I'm fat!?
J: .........


hahahahahhaha. okay, that's all folks.
Still hustlin.

We too happy right now.

Can't wait to see my bundles of joys. gaah. Two weeks. I can't wait. I can wait for 8 years, but two weeeeeekkksss is taking forevers!

observation

people now a days are so busy chasing papers, chasing big things--bigger than their life, so busy chasing material things that they've forgetting what really matters in the end. Health, family and bonding-ness with each other.

I mean, I guess people have different view of how life and how it should be... But early in my life experiences, thought me things that paper can never buy and get me... Happiness and contentment on what I have in life. My family, extended family and how we eat dinner on one table. We sleep and say goodnight, we lay on bed at the same time and have that bed talks. Weekend bonding, holding hands while driving, cooking together and making everything counts. Growing up, I never had that, I never had goodnight kisses, dinner all together in table... Everyone was so busy chasing papers or giving papers to someone, or finding/asking papers around... and there you go, everyone so happy with their papers they're empty inside...

So yeah...

37 weeks and 3 days...

any time now!

can My water break now? I want to get it out now........ jebush

I am craving pizza

FOREALS! I WANT IT IN MY MOUTH RIGHT ABOUT NOW. LOL

SOUNDS HELLA WRONG.

post birth

I will:

_breast feed
_run and get my body back
_lighten all the things that got darken along the process of pregnancy
_color my hair
_get new wardrobe
_get a tat. Finally, I've decided what I want. It's very significant. Don't care what anybody say, it's going on me. And I'm pretty sure, I won't regret it.
_make my man happy.
_love love love love
_be a happy family.

I wish

There's a manual for life. I'll be all over that and be reading it 24/7.

-on the run blogging

T.O.

_when you talk about your past like you should be proud of it. Seriously, There might be some here and there, but the thing you talk about the most is the least proud you should be. That's just me, that's just me.......

I believe in so many things.

I believe:

_In higher power.
I do. Coz everything is magnificent.
_In aliens and that some live among us.
_Underneath water creatures.
_I believe that everything in life in pre-meditated.
_I believe in photomemory
_I believe in love at first sight
_I believe in life after death, be it soul or reincarnation of soul or energy.
_I believe that we have not achieved the full capacity to live as a man.
_I believe in Respect is earned, not bought.
_I believe that blood is thicker than water, but money is thicker than blood
_I believe that everyone will betray you at one point or another.
_I believe in truth.
_I believe that there's more to life than self pleasure.
_I firmly believe in letting go when you are hurting too much.
_I believe in marriage.
_Yes, I do believe in divorce.
_I believe that when things are against your values and it deteriorates you as a person, its not worth it.
_I believe the golden rule.
_I believe that truth is always the best way.
_I believe that......

stop talking about love if you don't know what it means...

"Stop talking about love. Every asshole in the world says he loves somebody. It means nothing . What you feel only matters to you . Its what you do to the people you say you love; That's what matters. That's the only thing that counts." --The Last Kiss

Seriously...

I hate loooooooooooooooooosers! HATE THEM TO THE BONES OF MY DNA. I consider you as a loser if:

-You consider yourself an ADULT and still make 3 year old decisions.
-You consider yourself an ADULT and don't know your right from wrong.
-You consider yourself an ADULT and still get influenced by STUPID people.
-You consider yourself an ADULT and you whine and BITCH about doing adult stuff. You can whine, but bitch and not do anything about it............ fk!
-You consider yourself an ADULT and argh!

I CAN RANT AND RANT ABOUT IT FOREVER! stupid people makes me sick to the bones. I seriously don't know how these people ever exist in world. I just want to have an one on one with them, and make them feel like shit. I'm good at that. Making stupid people feel like shit.

Plus...

On top of my lunch, he cuts the meat for easy swallowing and chewing. Even put seasoning on my steak, coz he knows how i like it. Thats love right there! Pure love.


-on the run blogging

I'm not bragging... but...

I seriously have the best husband ever. He wakes up before me, and wakes me up softly. I wake up and he's already dressed. I brushed my teeth and gets ready and he gets our breakfast ready. I come down and breakfast is ready for me, and he already packed my lunch for the day. MY LUCH and his lunch already. Cat's food already filled. I have my lunch, water bottle filled, two apples in my baggie... PLUS breakfast. Without me asking... tell me, what else can I ask for?! Oh and I have a cinnabon bun! He drives and I get a kiss for just being his wife. HOW LUCKYYYYYYYYYY CAN A GIRL GET?!

<3 i love you JDS! mwah. I love being your wife.

B.I.L.L.S.

enough said.

my pregnancy picture

This is really brave of me... but here it goes, I'm just proud of my daughter to be,
Bonita Lisa "Bonnie" Tinio Semana. So say what you want to say, I love my pregnancy that I just needed to share it to the world.

If I win Lotto:

It would be fckn grahhand! Like seriously, all my problems and worries would go away like in an instant.

but................................ lotto... gebush, hard to win. I want to grind bad, seriously, but for now I have to sit here and watch my husband grind and others to grind. Coz when I do start grinding, fck, watch out, I'll be grindin' yo momma and her momma too!

but till then, 2011 please be nice to us.


2010 was very blissful, and now please 2011...... i labs you!