It's hard to keep it all in,

been super duper busy

2011-10-05T22:40:00.000-07:00

life has been a roller coaster for the past months. and seriously, roller coaster. LIKE ROLLER. COASTER. FAAAHHH, i can't complain. JOB, HUSBAND, DAUGHTER, SCHOOL AND BEING SO MUCH PRODUCTIVE, I have so much in my plate, plus friends? fahhh. i love my life. but so much things going on. SOOOO MUCHHH!!!

FYI

2011-07-23T16:29:00.000-07:00

I am laughing because you compare yourself to me. I think it's a pity. You have everything, and all the means to rise above everything, yet you compare yourself to ME. My life has been unfortunate, unfortunately, but I did not choose to be unfortunate. It was given to me. I did not have chances like you did, but HERE I AM. Being totally compared to you. Though, I think we're incomparable, I think with my unfortunate back to back circumstances, I STILL RISE ABOVE YOU. So what does that make me and make you? Equal? nope!!! not even, because I came from nothing and made it into something. You? you came from something and now nothing. so. ei. whatever works for you.

ps.

bitch.

Day 11: your family

2011-06-28T12:12:00.000-07:00

Nough' said.
(some family members are missing, but they're still in my heart.)

Day 10: put on your music on shuffle, and write the first ten that plays.

2011-06-28T12:08:00.000-07:00

1. Sorry, I don't have patient to wait for 10 songs.
2. Though, I have iphone, ipod, itunes, I DON'T KNOW HOW TO PUT MUSIC IN IT. lol.
3. so 3, I don't have music and I don't shuffle. lol.

I use pandora? that counts?

Day 9: How important you think education is

2011-06-23T23:33:00.000-07:00

I think, education is essential and very important. Though, education is not SCHOOL education is not for everyone, but everyone should try it. Education comes in all forms, self taught and the one you pay thousands of dollars just to get a piece of diploma saying you are definitely educated. See, my point is this:

There are those people that went to school, paid hella dollars and are still dumb as fck. And there are those people that did not went to school, but are so smart that I could have intelligent conversation with. For example, my Mr. He did not get the chance to go to college but talk to him about Physics, science, biology, religion, history, math and computer, he can definitely can answer you intellectually.

So my point is, EDUCATION is important, it doesn't matter where you got it, as long as you educate yourself.

Day 8: what you ate today

2011-06-23T23:31:00.001-07:00

nothing fancy.

In order:

1. Pinakbet with rice
2. yogurt
3. Banana
4. Cherry coke, (1/3 of the can)
5. Stick-O
6. Corned Beef with rice
7. Chips with Guacamole
8. Popcorn

Day 7: Five pet peeves

2011-06-23T23:11:00.000-07:00

PET PEEVES! damn, it only asked for 5, I have million of pet peeves!
But I guess, these are my top 5.

WARNING: I MAY TURN INTO GHETTO WHILE TYPING.

1. EXAGGERATION: fckkk, just the sound of it irks the hell out of me. Don't exaggerate things when you are talking to me. Trust, I know when you are. I have lived my life long enough to know when you are exaggerating. Tell me how it went down, no more no less! HOW HARD IS THAT?

2. WAITING: I hate waiting! oh men. I HATE WAITING! oh then I wait, then you makes excuses and LIES to cover up... men....................... men... oh men... It's okay for you to be 5-10 min late, but 30?! You'll for sure hear from me.

3. SELF PITY: no doug, that doesn't work for me. Don't call me and tell me your sad sad story in your life... It happened, it did not kill you, you're obviously alive, move on, you are stronger DEAL WITH IT! Yes, you are damaged, but so does everybody else. Stop lingering on the past, and deal with your future.

4. SELF CENTERED BITCHES/ KNOW IT ALL JERKS: oh damn! People that are TOO self centered gives me allergies. LADIES: I have this intimidating face for a reason. Woman like you that are self centered. I have this fuck off face. When I put that face on, that means you are one of those self centered bitches that I hate. JERKS: Go get your attention from somebody else's. I know you are smart and all, but if you wanna share your knowledge, DO IT IN MODERATION. thank you.

5. When I'm talking, I AM TALKING. When it's your turn, I will lend my ears. Don't talk over me. I WILL CUT YOU!

Day 6: your view on mainstream music

2011-06-14T23:41:00.000-07:00

I love it. PERIOD. I have nothing against it. As long as my ears like it, its fine.

Day 5: things you wanna say to an ex

2011-06-13T14:20:00.000-07:00

to me, exes are friends not enemy. They are exes for a reason, but they are not enemies. At one point, they were part of your life, it just so happened they did not cut it through and through. So the part were you guys shared together are worth keeping, because they are memories, and one day, you get to tell those memories to your future children... but non-the-less... I have things to say to a particular EX!

1. The things that your mom had said to me are unacceptable. And YOU know they are lies! and YOU still let your mom talk shit about me with people. I am somebody elses daughter, friend-- I was once someone in your life, and just coz we broke up, you let your family dirtied my name. WHAT A SHAME. I AM BITTER. no not because we broke up but because you let them do that.

2. I am gladdddddddddddddddddddd I broke it up! I just don't think LYING is the way to my heart.

3. At least we are both happy now.

4. It's not like he's gonna read this anyways. lol. Just sayin.......

BUT ANYWAYS, to all my exes, you guys still have spot in my heart. I love you all. <3 Stay in touch.

my 24th.

2011-06-11T23:00:00.000-07:00

for over a year of alcohol haitus, I drank again. And I'm telling you, it was a definite experience. It rocked! hahaha.

we got in the club at 1030, got kicked out at 1230! whackk! but between those hours, it was fckng awesome! I got drunk, buzzed, threw up in the trash can, and it was my first time blacking out! For the most part, I would do it all over again, except for the the blacking out part! I was seriously seeing black spots. fck! hahaha. If I had continued drinking, I would probably had alcohol poisoning. It was non-the-less a happy birthday!

Mr. was there to support me. And oh my God, I love him with every molecules of my being. I swear! He's the best husband in the whole wide world. Though, I was missing my little one, I love partying again, once in a while. I got home, and I seriously missed my little one. I love my life.

here are some lovely tainted pictures.

Day 4: bullet your day

2011-06-11T22:20:00.000-07:00

My day today is pretty much boring!!!

- woke up at 11 am
- stayed in bed with Bonnie til' 12 noon
- ate at 1 pm with Jude
- watched odditites the whole day
- did not shower or change lol.
- stayed home the whole day
- and now I'm writing a blog.

- the end.

Day 3: A book you love

2011-06-10T21:44:00.000-07:00

A book that I love?!

I have read a lot of books. But the one things that I absolutely love is The Alchemist, by Paulo Cohleo.

After reading the book, my life has never been the same. You gotta read it in order for you to understand it. It's life changing...

Day 2: (late) Something you feel strongly about.

2011-06-10T21:39:00.000-07:00

ANTI-ABORTION

If you can't handle the consequences after having sex, THEN DON'T HAVE SEX, or practice safe sex!!! But, if "un"fortunately, your girl or you got pregnant, DEAL WITH IT! I know it's your body, I know it's your life... BUT POOR KID! Getting aborted for your foolishness, or lack of responsibility. If you don't want her/him, still have it--then get it adopted. A lot of options out there, but pleaseeee don't kill it.

"WHEN YOU TURNED AWAY FROM A BLESSING, IT BECOMES A CURSE"-anonymous.

It is not about religion, or anything, I just strongly believe that everyone needs a chance to survive and fight in this world. And if you can't handle having a baby, then DON'T HAVE SEX! Don't put yourself in a predicament that leads you to having sex!

Thankyou!

Day 1: Five ways to win your heart

2011-06-08T18:10:00.000-07:00

.... Hmmm. 5 ways to win MY heart?

1. Foodies. I love it when I'm surrounded by people that WANTS and CONSTANTLY exploring their palette, and actually enjoying it. I've had my shares of food, and I love sharing my experiences with others, foods and everything I've eaten. I'm so obliged and happy when you text or call me and say, "hey, wanna eat at this new restaurant?" or "Hey, let's try exotic food." If I hear you say that, my heart gets fat!

2. Humor me. But please while doing that, no harm done to others. I don't like rough humor. I'm into sarcastic humor. Inside jokes humor.

3. Little things counts on my book. When I say little things, I mean it. LITTLE. THINGS. COUNT. ON. MY. BOOK.

3.5. Superficial sometimes wins my heart. The way you dress, you move, the swag, smells good... (LOL).

4. You know how to get along. ENOUGH SAID.

5. Brains and common sense! TALK TO ME. I don't care if you are an educated person, got some good schooling from good school, have pHd from somewhere high paying school. But if you don't know how to use common sense, and talk to me like a person, damn, I won't even consider talking or being friends with you for a second. AND, If you are too dumb, to even conversate with me? forget it. I want to have a conversation with you, if you are boring, forget it too.
you don't have to be school educated, to ride and die with me. You just need to have a common sense, and some other senses to catch my attention. getS?

30 day challenge.

2011-06-08T18:01:00.000-07:00

I've been seeing people on facebook doing this 30 day challenge. So I decided, hey why not do the same thing. keeps me occupied (as if I'm not occupied enough). Well no, I just wanna see if I can keep up straight 30 days blogging... as if people read my blog. lol. Well, it's for me, it's my own sake. Lately, I have not been doing anything religiously, so maybe, I could start on this and finish it, I could probably do more and more each day. Okay, Start, day one.

if only

2011-05-15T16:18:00.000-07:00

I had the resources then.... I would have been so much MORE right now.
But oh well, I had to deal what I had and made the best out of it...

I'm just throwing it out there. I have no regrets, I was just thinking out loud. But now worries, I can and I know I will make better life for me and my family... In time, in due time.

once again, Just thinking out loud.

I need intellectual discussions and reading...

2011-05-09T12:02:00.000-07:00

Because so I think I'm getting dumber by the second. LOL. My brain is not functioning well now a days. I forget words.......... literally. I find myself staring and forgetting what I want to say. I have forgotten how to converse properly, like an educated person.

I spend most of my days taking care of Bonnie. Most of the time, we goo-goo-ga-ga. When I read, I read journals, scientific journals to keep me updated with biology life. So actual conversation doesn't happen till Mr. comes home. When we do converse, our conversation is exceptionally funny. I've gotten use to him, but non-the-less, it's still conversation.

From now on, I will try to read more books, conversational books and read it to Bonnie.

PS.

Mothers day was spectacular. My first mommy's day. I love it. I LOVE IT.

Presenting: BLTS

2011-05-01T21:40:00.000-07:00

<3. the love of my life.

Bon bon!

2011-04-05T10:11:00.000-07:00

is here!!!! :)

:)

2011-03-25T14:50:00.000-07:00

I just want to say that He seriosuly surprises me as times goes by. I never lift a finger this past few months. Cooking. Cleaning. Moving. Everything. Im so pampered. And now I got a masaage. Wowssss! I dont deserve this. Despite that I have nothing but a needy bratyyy brat brat!

I confess, before everything, I thought its going to be the same as my past relationships, not to compare or anything, but this one is seriously on the pedestal level. Though he did not went to college, the things I learned from him, is beyonnnddddd what I have learned and what other smart asses I talk to and have conversations with. He learned all his stuff by himself. I am
Shock everytime. Really serious

I dare you

2011-03-22T11:35:00.000-07:00

I seriously think Adele made this song for me and Jude. Lol. well, mostly because our story is this song... Both scared to dare even try with each other, SOOO SCARED to fail with one another...

but in the end, it's all worth it. WORTH. ALL. THE. WAIT.

I'M TELLING YOU FIRST HAND.

I had some flash back listening to this song, that I had some butterflies.

Bonnieeeee

2011-03-20T13:00:00.001-07:00

Come out! Im really curious u look like!

-on the run blogging

Fujjjin annoyed!!!

2011-03-19T18:13:00.000-07:00

Okay. From now on, if you need me or want need anything and call me, im going to let it ring and ring and ring until you text me and say, hey are you free??? Because seriously this im fukkin annoyed!

Friends call me at 1am, 6am, 9pm, 3pm, 11:59 pm all sorts of time and number, and if i
Missed their calls, i would call back or text back!! Because seriously, what if something happened or something..... I'd pick up and talk even if i cant
Talk! Ill reply and answer stupid same damn fuckin questions! Ill give advice and be nice about it! Now I know... Because its me. I cant blame them. I expect the same ettiquete rules of picking Up and calling back from them which I dont get. Coz if im in class or doing something and they call or text, I would reply and say I cant talk in class call you later!!!

But them!??!?!??? Nooooooooo. They'll let me ring and ring and ring. If theyre sleeping, theyll just let it ring. If im sleeping and theyd call, ill wake up and answer! If they need pills, ill answer and get it. If they need something, in the middle of the day, i'd go (if i have a ride) and be there! Pronto. No questions asks. I have my phone with me and it rings, ill answer. I dont go look at it and say.... Ohhhh its just mai ill answer later. My phone rings and its downstairs, ill go downstairs and get it. If im in the shower, ill hop out and answer. If Im currently doing something, ill fuckin answer!

I know this people. Ive seen them and ive been with them! Ive never seen them walk WITHOUT their phones on hand. And for me to call them and ring and ring.... And let it ring. Its RUDE! so rude! What a phone ettiquette! Pshhh. Some bullshit. They even check theire phone while in the club blasting 900 thousand decibels of volume in their ears of music, and they CANNNNN hear their phone when theyre boyfriends are calling or a boy is calling...

Ahhh fuck this! From now on, if you wanna talk to me, call or text jude and i'll relay my message to him! Yes. Im mad. Super mad!!!

-on the run blogging

I do.

2011-03-11T14:51:00.000-08:00

I do. I do. I do.

And it won't be human of me to not admit it but I do. I do get jealous of other people. I do the what ifs and ifs. But at the end of the day, I KNOW I'M REALLY HAPPY WHERE I AM. Things happen for a reason. I am not them maybe because, if I were them, I wouldn't be as happy as I am right now.

I'm confident that I will achieve that kind of stature in life someday, but not right now. In due time. In due time.

funny in my ears

2011-03-11T12:33:00.000-08:00

Me sitting on the couch, Jude in the kitchen fixing dinner:

me: babe, my fingers are fat :(
J: no babe, they're not... you're pregnant, it's okay.
me: yeah they are. Fatter than before
J: oh okay.
me: so I'm fat!?
J: .........

hahahahahhaha. okay, that's all folks.
Still hustlin.

We too happy right now.

Can't wait to see my bundles of joys. gaah. Two weeks. I can't wait. I can wait for 8 years, but two weeeeeekkksss is taking forevers!

observation

2011-03-09T15:39:00.000-08:00

people now a days are so busy chasing papers, chasing big things--bigger than their life, so busy chasing material things that they've forgetting what really matters in the end. Health, family and bonding-ness with each other.

I mean, I guess people have different view of how life and how it should be... But early in my life experiences, thought me things that paper can never buy and get me... Happiness and contentment on what I have in life. My family, extended family and how we eat dinner on one table. We sleep and say goodnight, we lay on bed at the same time and have that bed talks. Weekend bonding, holding hands while driving, cooking together and making everything counts. Growing up, I never had that, I never had goodnight kisses, dinner all together in table... Everyone was so busy chasing papers or giving papers to someone, or finding/asking papers around... and there you go, everyone so happy with their papers they're empty inside...

So yeah...

37 weeks and 3 days...

2011-03-03T16:44:00.000-08:00

any time now!

can My water break now? I want to get it out now........ jebush

I am craving pizza

2011-03-01T15:13:00.001-08:00

FOREALS! I WANT IT IN MY MOUTH RIGHT ABOUT NOW. LOL

SOUNDS HELLA WRONG.

post birth

2011-02-18T12:10:00.000-08:00

I will:

_breast feed
_run and get my body back
_lighten all the things that got darken along the process of pregnancy
_color my hair
_get new wardrobe
_get a tat. Finally, I've decided what I want. It's very significant. Don't care what anybody say, it's going on me. And I'm pretty sure, I won't regret it.
_make my man happy.
_love love love love
_be a happy family.

I wish

2011-02-15T23:06:00.000-08:00

There's a manual for life. I'll be all over that and be reading it 24/7.

-on the run blogging

T.O.

2011-02-14T08:28:00.001-08:00

_when you talk about your past like you should be proud of it. Seriously, There might be some here and there, but the thing you talk about the most is the least proud you should be. That's just me, that's just me.......

I believe in so many things.

2011-02-11T13:52:00.000-08:00

I believe:

_In higher power.
I do. Coz everything is magnificent.
_In aliens and that some live among us.
_Underneath water creatures.
_I believe that everything in life in pre-meditated.
_I believe in photomemory
_I believe in love at first sight
_I believe in life after death, be it soul or reincarnation of soul or energy.
_I believe that we have not achieved the full capacity to live as a man.
_I believe in Respect is earned, not bought.
_I believe that blood is thicker than water, but money is thicker than blood
_I believe that everyone will betray you at one point or another.
_I believe in truth.
_I believe that there's more to life than self pleasure.
_I firmly believe in letting go when you are hurting too much.
_I believe in marriage.
_Yes, I do believe in divorce.
_I believe that when things are against your values and it deteriorates you as a person, its not worth it.
_I believe the golden rule.
_I believe that truth is always the best way.
_I believe that......

stop talking about love if you don't know what it means...

2011-02-11T13:48:00.001-08:00

"Stop talking about love. Every asshole in the world says he loves somebody. It means nothing . What you feel only matters to you . Its what you do to the people you say you love; That's what matters. That's the only thing that counts." --The Last Kiss

Seriously...

2011-02-09T08:21:00.000-08:00

I hate loooooooooooooooooosers! HATE THEM TO THE BONES OF MY DNA. I consider you as a loser if:

-You consider yourself an ADULT and still make 3 year old decisions.
-You consider yourself an ADULT and don't know your right from wrong.
-You consider yourself an ADULT and still get influenced by STUPID people.
-You consider yourself an ADULT and you whine and BITCH about doing adult stuff. You can whine, but bitch and not do anything about it............ fk!
-You consider yourself an ADULT and argh!

I CAN RANT AND RANT ABOUT IT FOREVER! stupid people makes me sick to the bones. I seriously don't know how these people ever exist in world. I just want to have an one on one with them, and make them feel like shit. I'm good at that. Making stupid people feel like shit.

Plus...

2011-02-07T13:03:00.000-08:00

On top of my lunch, he cuts the meat for easy swallowing and chewing. Even put seasoning on my steak, coz he knows how i like it. Thats love right there! Pure love.

-on the run blogging

I'm not bragging... but...

2011-02-07T10:30:00.000-08:00

I seriously have the best husband ever. He wakes up before me, and wakes me up softly. I wake up and he's already dressed. I brushed my teeth and gets ready and he gets our breakfast ready. I come down and breakfast is ready for me, and he already packed my lunch for the day. MY LUCH and his lunch already. Cat's food already filled. I have my lunch, water bottle filled, two apples in my baggie... PLUS breakfast. Without me asking... tell me, what else can I ask for?! Oh and I have a cinnabon bun! He drives and I get a kiss for just being his wife. HOW LUCKYYYYYYYYYY CAN A GIRL GET?!

<3 i love you JDS! mwah. I love being your wife.

B.I.L.L.S.

2011-02-03T12:20:00.001-08:00

enough said.

my pregnancy picture

2011-01-20T20:45:00.000-08:00

This is really brave of me... but here it goes, I'm just proud of my daughter to be,
Bonita Lisa "Bonnie" Tinio Semana. So say what you want to say, I love my pregnancy that I just needed to share it to the world.

If I win Lotto:

2011-01-12T14:39:00.000-08:00

It would be fckn grahhand! Like seriously, all my problems and worries would go away like in an instant.

but................................ lotto... gebush, hard to win. I want to grind bad, seriously, but for now I have to sit here and watch my husband grind and others to grind. Coz when I do start grinding, fck, watch out, I'll be grindin' yo momma and her momma too!

but till then, 2011 please be nice to us.

2010 was very blissful, and now please 2011...... i labs you!

6 months.

2010-12-28T10:52:00.001-08:00

lemme tell you first hand, it's hard, but oh sooo feel so good. So good in every way.

<3

OMG.

2010-12-17T13:22:00.000-08:00

third trimester. almost there. almost there! OMGG!!!!

waking up to this.

2010-11-30T11:25:00.000-08:00

one more thing...

2010-11-29T16:01:00.000-08:00

IF MY CAT IS THE COOLEST CHICK OUT THERE, WHAT MORE WITH MY KID?

JUST SAYINNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN!!!

I'm so tiny for 6 months. i gotta eat!!!!!

DECEMBER...

2010-11-29T15:55:00.000-08:00

already???

wow. I'm going on 5 months now, yes. I'm preggy. If I have not rant about that. well actually, I'm going on 6 months now. Wow. this is actually happening. It was not planned, but it works out for the best. I love being pregnant. and I can't ask for anything else!!! my husband is a very good husband, and I can tell that he's going to be a very good dad. superb!!!

Damn, our kid will be hella cool and stylish--> got it from the momma. not to mention, prbably a singer, or some actor or a drummer or a guitarist............. or anything. Damn. She be having Jude and I as parents, yo kids better watch out... coz mine is one hellaaaavvaaaaa kid. She got some attitude, I can tell. Because when she wants something, she kicks me. Inside me. My belly. MOM YOU BE GOOD! lol.

she totting some guitar kit around her and she'd be in boots, ninja stuff and... ahhhhhhhh!!! SHE'LL BE THE BEST! that's all I can say. I hope she gets the brain from Jude. and my fiesty ness from me. and All of the above except nose from me. lol. oh and height from Jude.

wow. I'm hungry. K gotta feed this monster. k bye.

COMPROMISE

2010-11-10T10:41:00.001-08:00

I'm writing this because I want to come across to those people that does not understand that it's just not a word--it's a very hard working action.

Compromise: according to dictionary.com
–noun
1.
a settlement of differences by mutual concessions; an agreement reached by adjustment of conflicting or opposing claims, principles, etc., by reciprocal modification of demands.

Say what?

Compromise: according to me.

1. meeting in the middle. simple words but hard to do. Pride will always be in the way. You pull, he/she pulls.

You two are two different person, different wants and needs, but together you are one so you have to compromise. There is no right or wrong between you two. I just want to let you know that I'm sorry that your relationship is over.... Sorry, condolence. But I know you guys love each other, but you just can't get into compromise on things that you have to.

When you are in a relationship, you should be ready give something up. That's being selfish. It's natural to be selfish, be selfish. In fact, it's essential to selfish to mature, grow and know yourself's wants and needs. But being with someone changes that. You're giving up your rights to shake off your pride and your selfishness skin. Because when you're with someone, you're not only thinking about yourself, there's also someone to think about. Your partner. Don't blame each other and point fingers. Instead, work out on the things you can work out. The things you can't work out, take it day by day.

I want to say so much, but I know it's not my position to tell you what to do. In fact, I hope you never sees this because Mark, I think you made a huge mistake. I hope you know that. I just want to let it out, because I know if talk to you, I will just laugh at you. Because in honesty?? I think you deserve to be alone. I don't think you know yourself yet, to be with someone... not just with Is, but with anyone. I don't think ANYONE can stand you in any way shape or form with your attitude and outlook in life. You're too DAMN SELFISH. But non-the-less, I still hope for the better of you. No one can tell you what to do, only yourself can realize what you've done. I'm not saying its ALL YOUR FAULT... no, I'm not. It takes two to tango... yes, she has faults too... BUT.................................................................................................................................................... she's to good to be true for you.

I want to R.A.N.T.

2010-10-27T13:39:00.000-07:00

1. Please don't be a downer. I know you are concern about everything, but I've got my own now and I am surviving. Don't tell me what I should be doing when I'm completely happy with what I have. Don't take me wrong, I listen to you, but sometimes you just have to step back and let me do my life.

there. ah. k.

MRS.

2010-10-19T12:35:00.000-07:00

MY LIFE AS A MRS. IS A GRAND! i loveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee ittt!!! period.

BUSY BUSY BUSY

2010-09-30T11:21:00.000-07:00

1. Getting married is not a joke.
-planning it, even if its for small venue, it still stressful.

2. I'm enjoying engaged. But I would love to be MRS. already.

3. I love it when Jude steps up and does his part of his job. Stress is half and half, and sometimes, no stress at all. Planning with him is like playing. It's nothing. We're just playing, but getting things done in order! Marriage should be like that. Working together and having fun. and getting things done.

4. but of course, it's not all fun. We had some arguments here and there. but it's still fun arguing. :)

5. <3.

it has been so long since I blogged. I'm busy. too busy!

Hi fans

2010-08-21T14:21:00.001-07:00

:)

Puss in the boots.

Keep it up!

-on the run blogging

My two cents.

2010-08-21T10:21:00.000-07:00

Today I was told to forgive and forget. True. Forgive and forget--them. There is no point to forgive a person that hurt you and come back to them just cause they've "change" or just cause they seem sorry. Let them be sorry! I think that's just plain stupid! How could you stay with a person that has/had hurt you over and over again? I can forgive and I will forget them--completely! Someday, maybe... I could think about them with complete peace of mind. Someday, I could accept things, maybe someday I could.

There are people that had hurt me unintentionally, but people that hurt me intentionally are the ones I can't merely think of their name, even cross my mind. It gives me shreik on my spine!

One day, truth will come out. But for now, you can linger on the things that you want to hear, but for me, my truth is different from your truth. This is why I forgave you, and forgot about you completely. Call me selfish, but my reality is different from yours.

I am maturing now, I have my own consequences. And if that consequence of mine is to be forever be doomed by not being able to let you inside my life again, then let my life be forever doomed. I'd rather live that way than pretend nothing happened.

I am 23. And even if i reached 50, I would still feel the same-- i forgot about you.

Engaged!!!!!

2010-08-13T16:53:00.001-07:00

Yes! I am engaged! Jude proposed to me and yes ofcourse i said YES with alllll of my heart. I will be taking his name soon and I will be a proud Semana.

Church wedding will be in Philippines and damn we're gonna bring it up like no body else! Fuckkk I am so happy that u could seriously say bull shit to me and i wont care fuckin at all.

Best days have yet to come, but this is one of the best days since I was born on this earth! Seriously!!!!

Seriously, there is no dull
Moment in my life. My life is
So exciting every minute and every second. If i were you, i wanna be me. Hahahaha.

:)

-on the run blogging

I missed July!?

2010-08-06T10:11:00.000-07:00

what the heck. oh well. Hi August. how are you? HOWWW YOU DOEN?

Statistics

2010-06-30T23:19:00.000-07:00

This guy knows what he's talking about!!!!!!!!!! As from my friend's of friends, whom have friends and I've got friends EXPERIENCESSSS, man.... I know what he's talking about. Lyfe Jennings knows what is up! seriously! he knows what he's talking about. Thank goodness, fortunately for me, I have not experienced any mishaps when it comes to my love life. I mean, there are sad moments, but no third person kind of thing. If we broke up, that's coz it's over due, or it's just not cutting it. Etc... But thanks to God all mighty, I did not have to go through unfaithfulness, gayness, or anything. I'm still fortunate!

Girls need to listen to his song. It's so true!

Lyfe Jennings Statistics Lyrics:
Alright alright alright y'all settle down settle down settle down.

If you don't know where you are this is STATISTICS 101
and I'm your teacher LYFE JENNINGS in the flesh baby.

Books out. Let's go!

25% of all men are unstable
25% of all men can't be faithful
30% of them don't mean what they say
and 10% of the remaining 20 is gay

That leaves you a 10% chance of ever finding your man
That means you better pay attention to these words that I say
I'm gonna teach you how expose the 90%
and show you what to do to keep the other 10.

[Chorus]
RULE #1
Don't be a booty call
If he don't respect you girl he gon forget you girl

RULE #2
If he's in a relationship
If he will cheat on her that means he will cheat on you

RULE #3
Tell him that you're celibate
And if he want some of your goodies he gon have to work for it

RULE #4
Be the person you wanna find
Don't be a nickel out here lookin' for a dime

[ Find more Lyrics on http://mp3lyrics.org/tT4l ]
STATISTICS!

15% of all men got a complex
15% of all men don't practice safe sex
20% of them are from homes without a father
so there's a 50/50 chance that you'll marry a coward

Something to think about when you're taking a shower
Something to swallow when you drink your bottled water

I'm gonna teach you how to expose the 90%
and show you what to do to keep the other 10

[Repeat Chorus]

Be patient! He's waiting!
You don't gotta settle for that
Leave what is past alone!
Get you a backbone!
Stop feeling sorry for yourself!

Have you made a checklist?
It's gonna take patience
Time is still wastin'

Don't be a booty call
If he don't respect you girl he gon forget you girl

If he's in a relationship
If he will cheat on her that means he will cheat on you

Tell him that you're celibate
and if he want some of your goodies he gon have to work for it.

Be the person you wanna find
Don't be a nickel out here lookin' for a dime.

Statistics!
Statistics!
Statistics!

Statistics!

Love its!

2010-06-14T14:47:00.000-07:00

I love it. I can't get enough of this song. I just love how she sang it with heart.

by the way, I got my baby.

named her MOMO, because of Avatar the last air bender. MOMO is a flying lemur. Hecka cute.

I got her for my friend, given by my friends.

and I did my birthday at the park. TOOOO MUCH fun I'm telling you. June. June. June. this month is making me ill, because too much going on in my life. Thanks everyone, seriously. The effort that you guys are giving me are more than enough to let me know you really care. I LOVE YOU ALL.

babe, thanks for putting 900% of everything on me. I love you. I love you

ahhhh

2010-06-08T13:08:00.001-07:00

A lot have happened since the last time I blogged. Too much, toomuch stuff have happened. I had so much fun with this couple of weeks.

May 16: Auggie's christening. It was fun seeing everyone, from all sides of the family.

may 22: Jude and I did our official anniversary trip in SF. We fell in love in SF. We rocked SF. We love SF. But no, we don't consider moving there, too much commotion. We hate traffic and tight spaces. Jude and I are very free people. Tie us down, and we'll gasp for something new. He likes big back yard and big garden, I hope he gardens. lol. I like flowers and bright colors, but I am no green thumb. His dad is, so I hope he gets that.
I got drunk, what else. hahaha. and he haul my ass around up and down sf.

June 5: my dear Aeden's 1st birthday. soo soo much fun. Kids birthday are always fun.

my birthday was simple, just me and Jude. I love it. We went to movie drive in and laughed our ass off. He gave me a ring, NO! not that ring, it's a hello kitty diamond studded ring. :) I LOVEE IT! For noodles, we stopped by at jollibee and ate it in the car while watching the movie. My perfect date. <3.

in between from now and then, we bonfired, we barbequed, we swam, we clubbed, That was not even summer. And now summer has started, more fun for us.

sexy grown man

2010-05-24T18:45:00.000-07:00

I find man that chooses wine over beer and hard liquor are sexy. There's something about the sophistication of drinking and KNOWING, actually KNOWING the wine that I find them sexy.

I am over that stage where sloppy guys that drink beers are sexy. Nope, I guess my taste is maturing.

;)

everything's gonna be alright

2010-05-19T14:37:00.000-07:00

I want my house to be fresh smelling and looking......... BUTTTTT it just can't right now.

Someday, I will live like a grand and shhhit, I'll clean that up like no body else!

hah! Can't wait to spend a whole month BY MYSELF. someday that will happen. someday. but now, I can't barely take a day without smelling jude around me. hahaha..

maybe next time, when I'm tired of his face, I could go on without him for a month. lol

till then, My house will look like eehh, and smell like home cooking everyday.

woopie

Long over due...

2010-05-17T12:34:00.000-07:00

My socks are stinky.

But anyways,

I just have to let this out. I'm really happy with everything. Nice and slow, slow but surely.

My Jude and I just turned 1 year, we celebrated our one year and 7 years of friendship.

First and foremost, before becoming lovers, we were friends. We knew each other on the surface like glue on a stick. We were tight as a rubber band and we admired each other as an individual above all. Every day we treat each other with respect, admiration and loyalty. We trust each other with our eyes close, we listen to each other and respects each other decisions. We are not perfect, we're far from perfect but we are perfect for each other. Everyday is exciting. No dull day. We can make couch day a very AB work out, because we throw each other's joke like no body else. We catch each others glance, and my tummy gets butterfly every time. I can sit here and type and type about us, about him, about how happy I am with us. Because I've never felt me in such a long time, till he came.

I could be hopeless, helpless, loveless, shoeless, moneyless, makeupless, foodless and he'll come and swoop me up just like that and make me feel like I'm the bombest among bombest.

My two nephews healthy and most adorable things in this world.

School is doing great. Slowly but surely. I'm not really in a hurry. I just really want to thank my Brother and Sister for supporting me in every way, for their support and everything. I love you at and koy. I hope you see this one day, I may not have say thank you enough but I seriously am thankful for everything. For your endless support with all my decisions and backing me up. Thank you for the trust and faith you have given me. <3

My friends are full support.

What turns me off

2010-05-13T12:21:00.000-07:00

In men and women:

_My first and instant turn off, and I guessthe thing the turns me offff so bad is drugs of any kind (coke, MARIJUANA, whatever kind. And if they justify MARIJUANA as an herb or whatever, club card, IT FUCKING TURNS ME OFF. Really bad. I don't need people in my life that thinks drugs is cool. I'd rather hang out with boring people than druggy people. UNDATEABLE. YUCKK YUCKK.

_guys that don't know how to dance. Bad dancer

_Bad breath

_Lazy

_Pigs

_Dirty mouth

_Person that forgets about their friends just coz they have bf/gf

_No talent

_Doesn't want to try anything new and go out of there box

_leather pants!!!!! not unless you're McJagger.

_Crotch Grabbing

_Doesn't know anything about food

_Stupid non sense to conversate with

_Talks only about themselves and how great they are

_GUYS that still live with their parents at age of 30...

_GIRLS that wear really slutty clothes just to get attention

_GIRLS with too much make up. ohhh men.

_Really shady people

_GUYS that are bad with directions.

_Overly buffed, overly gelled hair, overly tanned, overly coordinated, overly cologned. OVERLY GROOMED GUY.

_KILL JOY people

_BADDDDDDDD TABLE MANNER

_Bad drunk person

_violent person

_Alcoholic; it's okay to drink, just not over indulgence.

_smart ass

_Liars

more to come... Thats just it for now.

You know...

2010-05-10T12:48:00.000-07:00

So just you know, that I know, but I just won't tell you. I'll just let it drag and let it out one day...

I. DON'T. TRUST. YOU. AT. ALL.

that's all.

So for now, I'll just let it go... and I hope one day, KARMA will get to you.

I just hope karma won't sent me.....

Geminis

2010-05-04T10:57:00.001-07:00

Because Geminis are quick to act and talk, they may become frustrated with other signs that are not as quick to act.

What's beautiful in my eyes:

2010-05-03T16:15:00.000-07:00

(In a man)

_knows how to cook

_he knows how to sing

_he knows how to make me laugh my heads off

_knows how to play an instrument to serenade me

_beautiful smiles

_beautiful mind

_great outlook in life

_a man that walks the talks

_a tall man

_is not scared to show his feeling and tell the world

_knows how to dress himself for every occasion

_knows how to act with every occasion

_that loves what I love

_but will tell me straight up what they don't love

_adventurous

_will watch chick flick with me

_can take care of himself... THIS ONE IS A MUST

_can take care of me

_knows good music (this is a make it or break it thing)

_HUMOR!

_good appetite

_knows how to handle and hold me down

_HONEST!

_clean

_smells good or look like a good smelling person

_tatoo is sexy

that's it for now. Wow. That is on top of my head... But I noticed...... I have all those with my Juding. I just love how we can compliment each other. Happy month of may babes.

Oh and may I add.... No beef with the family. Understanding family is a majorieeee plus. My family is a very understanding family. They will take who ever I choose and wants to be with. I hope they respect me too as I am, for what I am and for what I have not. Take me as a whole, swallow my flaws and chew me as their own. And I love the Semanas for that. I know, without me even saying anything to them, they will take one for the team for me... 159% guarantee you, they will. And I will for them.

I just want to say:

2010-05-03T11:36:00.000-07:00

I hate sluttttttttttssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I don't know. hahahaha. I just do. I just do! sluts! sluts! sluts!!!

girls with too much make up! jebush. ahhhhh. I'm allergic.

Too much make up, and slutty girls. haixxxxxxxxx....

just sayin....

Happy mothers day

2010-04-29T20:12:00.000-07:00

No, it's not mothers day yet, but I want to do an early blog for all the mothers I have known through out the course in my life.
I want to give them kudos for everything that they have done for me in so little and big ways that no matter how little or small, it affected me it's because of them, I am Mai, Mai Tinio.

First and foremost, my mother. Bonnie:
how I miss you. I never really thought that one day you will be gone. I've taken those days for granted. Now, I would love to take them back to spend those times to be with you again. If only... But i know everything is where it's suppose to be. I became stronger as a person because of you and what I have see in you. I've learned to forgive countless times. Throw me a rock and throw them a smile. Learn how to have faith in people and not be selfish. Learn how to love unconditionally and tirelessly. To love like i am the champ. Have integrity. To lower my pride when needed. To have pride when needed. To cry and be tough. You've shown me how to be faithful no matter what. And above all you showed me that it's never too late to change anything as you have faith.

To my sister, Ginger,
Thanks for standing up for me when no body was. When nobody believed in me, you gave me the benefit of the doubt. Thanks for trying to take care of me, though I know it must have been scary for you to suddenly have 20 year old baby out of no where. Thanks for all the support you have given me. Though we had some rifts at times, were sister and that's natural. Thank you for trusting me. Tha you for trusting me to be an adult. Thank you for giving he life you wish you had. I love you.

To my tit a d
Thanks for filling in. With you, I have learned to be generous and to cook. To pray. To work hard. Be the woman I am today. Thank you.

To my one and only grandma

Thank you for taking care of us when we were little. I love you. Thank you for the strong and tough genetics you have given us to eat tab and fatty foods. :)

Auntie Dianne:

Thank your for always protecting us from all hatred in the world. From always shielding us from something ugly. Now that I'm grown up, I don't think I couldn't make it okay without your guidance growing up.

To the Ramirez family

Thank you for everything. For making me part of your own family. For taking care of me and putting up with my antics. I love you.

There's more, I am just taking a breaking.

Bucket list

2010-04-29T17:56:00.001-07:00

Before we kick the bucket, we gotta do this.

-on the run blogging

It's a hard knock life

2010-04-29T14:12:00.001-07:00

Yes, it is a hard knock life.

amenhotoep III is tutankhamun's granfather and his dad is Akanathan. Random fact.

Anyways, there's so much things in life that you should be thankful for. Don't linger on things that are not necessary in life. Look at the glass half full.

It's already hard, you cried when you came out of you mom's, so why make it harder.

HOW

2010-04-12T14:19:00.000-07:00

how do one focus when it's so gloomy outside, raining, looking out the window, is having cramps, day dreaming, and has a long list of homework to finish, house choirs that are lined up, and I want to cuddle. and not looking forward to work?!? How?! how! how!!!!

HOWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW!!???

I have a crush

2010-04-10T16:14:00.000-07:00

On my boyfriend. I can't get over him. Is that bad? Everytime I look at him, I get this happy feeling....

On a girl. That girl. Man, she knows how to walk and talk and shiiiiiiiiiii....

Sienna Miller. She hawwwwwwwtttt!

My self. wow. Concieted. lol

love.

Earth Hour.

2010-03-27T11:46:00.000-07:00

Please participate. Watch and be inspired. I love you earth!!!

lol.

2010-03-22T10:56:00.000-07:00

hahahahahahahahahahahahahhahahahahahaa. I'm watching Betty White and Ellen. D. OMG, nothing is more attractive with old people when they're funny.

Growing old is part of life, but being humorous is a choice. and I think, life would be much better if you grow old humurous.

Ponder

2010-03-18T15:55:00.001-07:00

Which of them are you.

-on the run blogging

affles.

2010-03-18T13:39:00.000-07:00

I love affles. Specially when they are so crunchyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy. yummy yumm yumm!

One year annivs are the best. I wanna go somewhere fun, kiddos and exciting.

:) love you baby affles. lol.

Men......

2010-03-17T12:29:00.001-07:00

Oh men.. I have the hugest crush on this girl. Yes, a girl. I admire her so much. Like, if I was a boy, I would totaly go for this girl. No matter how much she rejects me. She's like me, but... no buts... If there is such thing as a same sex soul mate, she would be it.

I love her ideas, her out look in life, her everything. The way she talks, walks, and boss. Men, she is a boss. She's not perfect and she knows that, she... Ah I can't explain. She's not that, all that girl next door kind of girl, infact, she's not bomb shell. She's just really sophisticated girl. She knows how to dress, where to look, what to eat and laugh.

We have the same out look in life, our wants and needs, things we see, and want to see. Our taste bud must have came from the same DNAs because, if given we are given the chance, we'd eat at the most finest places hole in the wall kind of thing. Sadly, I don't even know her name. I just know of her. I don't even think she knows I exist... I mean I'm her stalker. lol. No, not really. I know her from somewhere.... But I look forward to that one day, to meet her and probably talk to her....... I would probably stutter in front of her.

Okay, girls could have girls crushes too. No, I'm not lesbian, I just dig those girls and boys that knows wassup'.

Nick Jonas

2010-03-11T14:11:00.000-08:00

He's really growing on me. I have huge crush on him now. He's so sexy. Talented too.

On my spare time too, I imagine I am Cinderella, and all these good looking guys likes me. lol. hahaha. hahahha. hahaha. okay. yah.

Can't stop listening to this.

"She doesn't like to worry, but she's afraid of everything that's going on around her...."

trichotillomania

2010-03-11T10:51:00.000-08:00

Pulling your hair. It's an Anxiety Disorder. Ouch.

If you're going to hurt yourself because I am anxious, I would probably do my eyebrows.... to make it more prettier. Ahh, just a thought.

on my sparetime:

2010-03-11T10:27:00.000-08:00

I like checking on book flights. No, not that I ever gone into and travel... There are just some circumstances that I can't go. One, I don't have money.... lol.

Anyways, I like checking on book flights to anywhere. I MEAN ANYWHERE. to the most strangest places. I, one time, check to go to Burma. Just cause. One time, I checked on going to babuyan Island, or somewhere there.

I just like doing that, to see whenever I would go, whenever that is, I know how much money I should save for the trip.

Kayak.com is the bomb.

The way you are

2010-03-08T21:05:00.001-08:00

Wrote it aug 10, 2009.

I love the way you are.
Dont change coz i fell for your smile
Your carefree eyes
The way you look pass through me like no body else.
The way you wish from the stars.
You're alcoholic addicting ways, it's fine coz if your kidney fails i'll donate mine and share it with you. So dont change a thing. i fell for your deep thoughts and how you care genuinly apart from your fuck it attitude. I love you because of what you are and what you are to me and what i have become with you. I have become the person i longed and missed. Being with you is humbling, and ive never felt it with anyone else. I love you, dont change. I fell for you for the way you are. If you're going to change, change for the better. Because no matter what happens, my love will only grows from this point on.

It was raining on the way to work, scary, but after all it was worth putting up with all the rain. Coz i got to see this. :)

-on the run blogging

Drake and Timba.

2010-03-04T13:01:00.001-08:00

Say something

This song says a lot. It is true.

It goes with all relationships, friendship, siblings, any.

If you don't know how to handle your jealousy, you will just fall apart.

Two identity, two person, can't be the same always. One will go up, one will always be under the other. Jealousy can be good, it's either it will make you strive harder and be the best you can be. It can bring you closer, and tighter. But jealousy could be also bad. Catastrophe when it's handled wrong. It can go both ways.

There is a fine line between success and jealousy and being ruined as a person and as supporter.

You gotta understand yourself and the other person. You have to know when to support and when to rise. I'm telling you, jealousy is a very tricky thing. Very very tricky. Beware on how you put your point of view with it. It can ruin you as a person, bad.

I think the key is understanding, communication and balance.

Really. Life is crazy roller coaster ride.

ATLAB

2010-03-03T10:56:00.000-08:00

OMAHHGAHH. I cannot wait. I cannot wait. I cannot wait!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

summer come now. Please!

Because

2010-03-01T18:11:00.001-08:00

I said so.
Because when you do, you just dont

Im so sleepy

-on the run blogging

what if...

2010-02-28T18:53:00.000-08:00

sssssssssssssssss....

hah?!

output

2010-02-27T23:13:00.000-08:00

Since I gave up FB for Lent, blogging will be my outlet for now. So I will be writing here more often, not that anybody reads this, or even care, or bother knowing my rants/opinion/ etc............ I'll just have to do this for now.

fights.

2010-02-27T21:18:00.001-08:00

I can officially say that when I fight, I fight to the bones. When I'm mad, the world crumbles and shakes. Chile was affected when I'mad. Earth quake came and shattered the whole pacific coast. Damn. wow. hahaha.

Love only gets stronger when we fight. Yes, it seems horrible but damn, feels good to know that you'll fight till you get to the terms and compromises.

We fight, the whole world knows. Kudos men, kudos.

hahaha.

2010-02-26T14:44:00.000-08:00

I was watching Bonnie Hunt show and the guy said:

When there's a big fight in the couple, it's the guy's fault.

When there's a small fight in the couple, it's the girl's fault.

LOL.

Kinda True. lol.

broken strings

2010-02-26T14:39:00.001-08:00

Broken. But not dead. still playing.

.

2010-02-26T12:39:00.001-08:00

"my dear were slow dancin in a burning room..."

-on the run blogging

fuck you jerk!

2010-02-25T23:15:00.001-08:00

I fuckin hate you. You'll get it from me, no not from karma, from me bitch! I'll fuck you over. Wait until I get my hands on you. bitch, go hide.

fuck off:

2010-02-24T23:08:00.000-08:00

SORRY IN ADVANCE IF YOU'RE GOING TO READ A LOT OF CUSSING WORDS HERE. I NEED TO LET OUT THIS ANGER, OR ELSE I WILL BLOW UP AND MIGHT START SLAPPING RANDOM PEOPLE OUT OF NO WHERE. SO THIS WOULD NOT BE YOUR USUAL PG BLOG.

I am mad. So maybe, if you are really a friend, you should NOT get me mad. Because I fucking get really violent when I am mad. No, then if you are getting me mad, THEN you are really not my friend. BECAUSE MY FRIENDS KNOW WHEN I GET MAD. It's either they are a town away from me, or they stick it out and pray the hell out of themselves when I am mad. You should not be near me in any way possible. If possible, when I'm mad, hide. Because I will fuckin loose it and might not even remember your name.

Now, if you're the one getting me mad, that's a whole different story. Stay! Please for the love of everything cute, stay. Why? So no INNOCENT will get affected, just you, the prey!

It takes a lot for me to get mad. A LOT. Yes, I have short temper, but I get over it easily. But me getting mad, that means you really up to something. Most things that get me mad without explanations are:

1. Lying.

2. Cunning people

3. Cheaters or if I know you're on that page of cheating lying ass bastard

or 4. you are are the person who's the cheater is cheating with. And you know.... faaaaaakkk.

5. Very inconsiderate, rude, disrespectful people.

Those five will get my hands flying on your face with no question, explanation, any thing is asked. Bitch I will cut you!

Now, why am I mad? Very inconsiderate, rude ass disrespectful girl just cross the line. Men, today is Lent. If it wasn't for Jesus saving my life, I would usually run to your house, call you on your phone, get at you and fakkkkkkkkk you over. But I forgive. I forgive, with a limit. ONE MORE TIME BITCH, I WILL CUT YOU!

Try me. Try me one last time.

P.S.

I am a really nice girl but really violent when you cross the line.

You're messing with the wrong person. Don't take my niceness as a weakness, it's just a front. Hear me? A FRONT!

love,

Mai. :)

I hate:

2010-02-21T22:48:00.000-08:00

(hate is a strong word, I do use it with sense... and when I say hate, I really mean HATE!)

_People when they act differently when they are at different crowd.

_When they try to be so gangster when in fact, they're not.

_When it's so clear, they are trying so hard to be the center of attention.

_When they try to dumb themselves out, just to look something else.

_When people don't understand little things

_People invading private space

_Too many questions

_repetitive things/ stories/ complaints.

_non-sense ranting

_When people think they are the only ones in the world that has problem

_When they put themselves in EVERY situation and EVERY conversation.

_When you ask for advise and all you get is, "YAH, WHEN IT WAS ME........"

_When they try so hard to look cool in front of their friends "ei, at home, they don't curse, cuss, smoke--whatever--but in front of their friends, they say "fuck" every other word, they smoke two packs, like they smoke like theres no tomorrow"

_When you say one thing and does the other.

_NAME DROPPING!

_Liers!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

_Laggers

_Marijuana smell. And it's Everyday people user!

_Drug addicts

_When people don't know how to act appropriately in certain place, time and occasion.

_(your name insert here): _________ show.

_When you try to look cute when in fact you're not.

_I am not a fan of I should be doing this, because EVERY BODY IS DOING IT.

or, I have to do it, because I have no choice! Bull fucking shit, you always have a choice, That's why it's called a choice!!!

_People that think they can't live without their boyfriends/girlfriends. That they will die without them.

_Pretenders.

That all for now, on top of my head.

Food Chain

2010-02-17T09:45:00.000-08:00

So I am here debating if we're really on the top chain of food chain? Really? Well what about Bears? Bears could eat humans right? You go face to face with a Grizzly Bear, let's see who's really on top of the food chain. You or him?! Ha! I'd run away. So really, humans are really not on the top of the food chain.

hahahaha.

Okay, yah, that's me thinking on an empty stomach. I need to eat. rarrr.

Sunday Morning

2010-02-10T11:24:00.000-08:00

Just incase you want to know what's my FAVORITE DAY of the week. It's definitely Sunday Morning. That said, here:

I like you like my Sunday morning.

I like staying in bed knowing I have things to do tomorrow.

I love the way my bed smells after my wet hair dried.

I love the way the sun peaks through my window, annoying me to get up.

I like my Sunday morning breakfast in bed.

I like my messy room, better on Sunday morning.

I love Sunday morning, because it was the very first day I met you.

Now, saturday, turns your light down low.

Brave Face

2010-02-10T11:21:00.000-08:00

This girl got some swaggggggggggggggggggggggggggg. Promise. I swear. I love her voice, and everything about her. But this song is really ouchy. No, I'm not going through it, but yes, I've gotta admit, I MIGHT have been through it, or KNOW someone who has been. Vice versa with boys, LOL. That's a definite yes! yes! yes!

Well anyways, Mellisa Polinar.

Shoes.

2010-02-07T22:59:00.000-08:00

I want so many heels. Ugh. No money. Faak.

Valentines Date

2010-02-07T22:43:00.000-08:00

Though it's already given that my valentines date should be my boyfriend, I still wanted to be asked. Today, Jude asked me if I could be his valentines, Of course I said yes. It's the gesture that counts.

I love you.

Dear Baby,

2010-02-03T22:30:00.000-08:00

I love waking up in the morning and you're next to me.
I love seeing your calm face.
I love knowing that you're just an inch away.
I love waking up and your arms are all over me.
I love the way you kiss me before you go.
I love our early breakfast.
I love you try to still eat with me, though you're going to be late.
I love you still cook for me, though you know you're going to be late.
I love everything about the mornings.
I love everything about you.

I love you.

Love,

Babe.

memory lane

2010-01-28T13:18:00.000-08:00

So I found my old Xanga site, and omg it brought me back memories. Happy ones though. It was fun, so while doing that, made me realize that I love writing. So when that happened, I went back to my old note books and read what I wrote on them.

Pretty F-ing awesome!

I laugh out loud. men oh men.

That's why I love writing things down. It makes me smile someday and at makes me think of good old times.

usher.

2010-01-21T23:50:00.001-08:00

you are so hot.

katy perry, you're hotter.

goodness. i LOVE YOU.

blurbbbbbbbbbbbbbbb

2010-01-20T16:17:00.000-08:00

I don't know what to say. Because i seriously don't know. I just let my hand type and type and type. Right now I colose my eyes and just let it type. let my head back down and type. type. tyep. let's see where it would tke me.

someday i want to settle down far far far away. i don't know when i just want to.

Anxiety attack

2010-01-20T12:03:00.000-08:00

I cannot contain this feeling. Anxiousness. Ahh. I don't even know why I'm anxious.

I have a lot of things in mind. I need to put them into action. I want to plan things.

I want to plan a lot of things. Give me something to plan! damnnittt!

Lil re-cap.

2010-01-07T11:49:00.000-08:00

_8 months and 5 years, and counting.

_Reno, snow, tahoe trip.

_christmas

_new years kiss.

_another nephew

_life

_love

_friends

_camping trip

_fights and make ups

_halloween

_daddy

_and many more.

not in order.