I want it.

From Timbaland. I don't know. I just want them.

I will see...

the world one day on my own time, at my own phase, with my own hard work and pain.

Someday world. Someday.

Don't worry, I'm not in a hurry.

I will eat all kinds of foods, and visit all kinds of museums, and all things to see and what not to see. Drink everything on my path, and Share it to the world. I'll bring whoever wants to come. And I will see you all ONE DAY.

Oh and specially Amsterdam. Lol.

_Travel all America, yes, even Nebraska.

_Travel middle east.

_Asia

_and little Islands.

_Of course, Philippines.

Don't worry, I'll have enough money for you all. One day. One day.

tell me why.........

I am so excited for this Christmas.

Our Agenda:

_drag bubbs to watch twilight. lol. hahaha (He's the kind of boyfriend where he secretly hates chickflick.....)

_Clean the house for the Semanas to eat, they eat like a feast.

_Cook. Cook. Cook. Cook. Coooooooooooooooooooooooooooook!

_Thanksgiving. Cook turkey? or nahh. maybe Chicken.

_Santana row, just to look like snobs and walk around like we don't care, but secretly admire the surroundings, and admire each other. lol.

_Of course, Christmas at the park. Def!

_buy our first Christmas tree, I'm ecstatic.

_decorate it. Which means, I decorate it, and he watch and take pictures and blah.

_Clean the house.

_Have our first Christmas party with friends.

_Clean the house. lol.

_Then Christmassssssssssssssssssssssssss!

_Then Vegas!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

_Then New year!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

okay, those are really vague agenda

I'm planning...

wow. yeah. I am. lol. I don't do it usually, but I do plan sometimes. lol.

Bubbs, kinda sad. :(

So I think I'll make him a surprise something. I don't know, but I'm planning.

but Christmas is coming fast for sure. :)

Simple but from the heart. Nothing big, just something to show that I appreciate him.

Me getting excited.

It's beggining to look a lot like Christmas. Ei?

yup.

my guilty pleasure...

don't tell anyone. shhhhhhhhhhhhh.....

I am crushing really

Hugeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

really huge. huge. huge.

S/he/they're haaawwtttt.

:) argh. Can't. Stop. Crushing. A lot.

It's just a crush okay?

nom nom nom.

According to:

You know sometimes people have different wants and needs? I have one too!

Once upon a time, I was dressed according to what they wanted,
According to what they think is always right,
Even what I should want and need in life,
What I'm supposed to want and need,
What I should be and do...
For so long, I thought thats what I wanted and needed.
Now, letting all this go is hard, but I have to,
Because it's never what I wanted and needed.
Because I KNOW even if I have them, whatever they are, IT WILL NEVER WORK FOR ME.

I know because I've seen them with so many eyes and people that were dressed and fed just like me.

Even though its hard letting all materials and feelings go, I have to.

Because I know in the end, I will be miserable as they are now.

bomb ass diggity food!

wweeepppiiii.

Last night, Jude and I made some bomb ass diggity food. heehaww. I'm lucky that my boyfriend knows how to damn cook!!! woopiee. Last night we made thai soup Tomyang/Potak. Got it right! nom nom nom nom nom! Boyfriend made some bomb ass Calamari.

Yesterday was uplifting day for me. Boyfriend just knows how to make me sane and happy. I heart you!

_stayed at home the for about till' 4pm (couched potato)
_went to starving musician
_went to Korean store/grocery and shopped for good bad ass recipes.
_went at home cooked it
_dinner
_movie
_cuddle

<3. Made my day.

PS.

blockbuster is closing.

mai is

in need of serious vacation.

ma.

I seriously miss you.
I seriously miss you.
I seriously miss you.
I really do.


mai.

you know...

Don't make someone your priority when to them, you're only an option.

when...

will my time come? I'm not in a hurry, but I'm just wondering. I always wonder, but this time I am really curious.

hmmmmm.

gloom.

Don't you have those days where everything is just plain gloomy. Gloomy bed, gloomy lights, gloomy weather.... everything just seems to be negative. I am pretty errmmm... I don't know really, I don't know if I am a positive or negative person, but today is pretty much gloomy for me. You can say today I am a negative person...... I think it's the weather. Weather. Weather. Weather.

I'm hungry. I need to eat, but I can't eat. Depress.

Moments. Moments. Moments.

I'm inspired to write a poem for no particular reason, for no particular person. Just inspired... but it might be on the negative side, for I am negative today. Bear with it.


Last night I thought I was it.
Yesterday I thought I was it.
Today I woke up and it was gone.
Maybe if I pray harder it will come back.
Tomorrow is unpredictable, it might or not.
Right now. it's misplaced.


Moments.

rahandohom.

We were in the car:

J: (laughing hysterically)
M: why you laughing?
J: Omg. I just remembered what you said last night, when you were sleeping.
M: what?
J: You woke up and said, "babe, I love cup cakes" then sleep.
M: I don't remember.

hahahahhahahaha.

I talk and think about food when I sleep... :I nommm.